~Cheeze~

2008-06-05T17:08:00.001+08:00

You're still the one

2008-05-29T23:17:00.002+08:00

You are still the one i care, you are still the one i think of, you are still the one that matters, you are still the one i love. you are still the one ...

Just when will you not be the one?

A dream so real

2008-05-21T12:28:00.002+08:00

Just woke up, crying.. it has been a long time since i had a dream, about 2-3 months back. Never had i expect myself to dream of you again. It was so real, i thought we patched up.

I sat at the sofa, you came over to me and gave me a very hard bite on my hand, but i just bear with it, then you scolded me. You pulled me up and we ran away and just kept runing and laughing. There was so much laughter and fun just by doing something stupid with you.

I woke up realising how much i still miss you ger.

I miss you.

I HATE MYSLEF!! I HATE IT !! I AM AN IDIOT!!

2008-05-06T00:12:00.003+08:00

So pissed.. I just am so F**king Pissed, KNNBCCB WATEVER LAH... NBCB.. MF ... FAGGOT DH....

I really am so lost... So pissed... dont understand why cant even this damn blogger give me some face and work for damn goodness sake.. WTF? Pissed with the XML .. screw up my time format with that UNDEFINED, UNDEFINED, UNDEFINED... You blogger editor out there provide shit solutions.. WHY MUST I FOLLOW THAT FORMAT.. WHY CANT I JUST PUT TIME FORMAT DIFFERENTLY INSTEAD?????? You are just hidding the damn problem away, and not even solving anything..

I cant control myslef.. i really keep too many things to myslef.. but yet.. those i told to were probably disappointed in me and didnt want to talk to me anymore.. everyday .. it just pile up more and more.. i just dont know how long can i how on anymore. Everytime i think of you, i will just break down .. everywhere i go, your shadow is always around ... Why?. I really dont know what to do.. but just kept you in my prayer everytime...

FED UP with myself... Just so sometimes i wish i am dead.. Nights filled with nightmare, Days filled with yearning...JUST WHAT THE FUCK DID I GO SO WRONG? WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH ME.. FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.. I REALLY HATE MYSELF .... I am just waiting to die ... for so many times, i just close my eyes on the road on the bike asking why all these must happen... i cannot stand it .. and if i must .. just let me die on the road now.I REALLY CANNOT STAND MYSELF...WHY CANT I JUST LIVE FOR MYSELF??? I CAN JUST DIE WITHOUT CAUSING ANYONE ANY PROBLEM>.. AHHAHAHHHAH..

DAMN YOU BLOGGER.

2008-04-24T23:26:00.002+08:00

You never understood how you are my world, with you gone... where do i live? I know i caused you pain and anger, but little did i know it caused me more grief and torn me apart... i am guilty.. i hate myself ...

The Living Dead

2008-01-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

lost my heart.

lost my mind.

What am i.

Hi to whoever who read this..

2008-01-10T19:56:00.000+08:00

19 days since we met- at Bugis Village where we parted as you went to meet your brother, i made a U-turn and last saw you at the bus-stop. You msged me to Ride safe before i left.

10 days since you last msged me. Your last msg asking me to think before doing anything because your family is affected.

After that, hell.

I am in a mess, i really hate myself now, shouldnt have drank, i HATE MYSELF! PIECE OF SHIT.

Bloody drunkard wastrel..

i miss you so much now. Everyday, i couldnt eat nor sleep..

A meal a day, i just play games 24/7 but it didnt help.. Forget to drink, forget to eat, forget to bathe.. just forget everything, and when its time to sleep.. i just got so tired and sleep... i thought it helps...but consectutively, i dreamt of you everynight... i really miss you .. i thought i saw you .. and i thought i heard you talking to me .. then i woke up and look around.. i definitely heard you... but .. you are not there.. i must be dreaming..

School has started, didnt want to leave from my dream.. didnt want to go school.. skipped so many lectures already..

Now that i am broke as well, bills, medical fees, whatever ..I wish i was this guy,

But no.. i am this guy,

Whatever.. i just miss you so much, there is so much to tell you.. and i really love you. going crazy soon.. i dunno how long i can hold on.. i am getting hysterical, i dont know what i am seeing is what i am seeing.. or what am i even doing..

all i know is, i am true to you.

Sinking Heart

2007-12-30T03:07:00.000+08:00

Oh.. look there.. its already on the floor! My only place to vent my feelings, who bothers to read them anyway... Yah.. i am a human... i need to vent it somewhere.. I AM FEELING SO DAMN AWFUL NOW.. What is the matter? There is no point in me thinking, because i dont even know what happened, so why cant you just tell me? Do i deserve to be treated like that? Are my feelings fake? i cant go on.. i am feeling so screwed... so void.... i cant think properly now..
Watever.
Pulling my hairs off..

Yah.. i can save going to the barber..

Happy Boxing Day

2007-12-26T01:49:00.000+08:00

Lyrics: Eason Chan - Lonely Christmas

谁又骑着那鹿车飞过
忘掉投下那礼物给我
凝视那灯饰只有今晚最光最亮
却照亮我的寂寞
谁又能善心亲一亲我
由唇上来验证我幸福过
头上那飘雪想要栖息我肩膊上
到最后也别去么
merry, merry christmas, lonely, lonely christmas
人浪中想真心告白
但你只想听听笑话
lonely, lonely christmas, merry, merry christmas
明日灯饰必须拆下
换到欢呼声不过一刹
明晨遇到亦记不到和谁在醉酒中偷偷拥抱
仍然在傻笑但你哪知道我想哭
和谁撞到亦怕生保
宁愿在醉酒中辛苦呕吐
仍然在头痛合唱的诗歌听不到

Cant get enough of the MV, So damn upset but who really knows? I feel like a nobody...

Do you really treat me like that?

----
Enjoy the MV bah.. i can sing almost half the song now..

Same old MV i posted last christmas.

I found an interesting song while on my way home..

A song by "The Click Five" going to search for it.

SCREWED IT LAH!

2007-12-15T15:36:00.000+08:00

WTF? WHATS THE POINT OF MAKING THE EFFORT WHEN YOU DONT EVEN APPRECIATE!
I AM FUCKING UPSET, DO YOU EVEN GIVE A DAMN? WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME DO YOU EVEN ASK ABOUT MY WELL-BEING? DO I LOOK LIKE A TOY TO YOU?

I just want to do everything wonderful, putting all the effort for this day...

Not appreciated at all, not appreciated..

Knock Knock, anyone home?

2007-12-15T13:27:00.000+08:00

Felt so neglected.
Happy weekends?

Simply happy

2007-12-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

You just made my day!! LUB LUB!
=)

Getting tired

2007-12-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

If I were to sit on the fence and do nothing.. is it going to an end too? What happens if i dont put in any effort anymore? Am i even appreciated in the first place...

I just need a little nudge, or a sign of assurance..

I dont get any..

sigh.

Is it a crime to miss you?

2007-12-10T00:09:00.000+08:00

Is there anything wrong with missing you? Why do you have to be that fierce....

Sigh.

Sad.

The dark side

2007-12-09T01:12:00.000+08:00

Why am i feeling this way again? I just want to do everything GOOD!
Do you understand how i feel?
*Sigh*
Get my butt up and go...

(What a moron i am.... and everyone understands this but does not understand me)

One-sided?

2007-12-06T00:05:00.000+08:00

Is it getting one-sided?

I am begining to understand what is NATO in my world.

NATO hurts.

Unhappy

2007-12-05T00:14:00.000+08:00

Feel so unhappy, but who really understands me??
sianz.

Chill and have a game or two?
sianz.

What should i do now...

Shity Shity Ban Ban.

Haiz

2007-12-04T00:53:00.001+08:00

Tonight is the 3rd.. sigh....
(cheer up!!!!, i will do my best no matter what!!)

A fan and a pile of shit

2007-11-11T02:26:00.000+08:00

Beks always use this to decribe feeling shitty,and i some how added more descriptions to it. I was telling Stan the other day.. imagine yourself, siting in front of fan, switched on and facing you. Suddenly, A WHOLE DAMN F**KING PILE OF SHIT falls on the fan.. and it splatters! Cool isnt it? I guess its even better if the whole damn pile of shit just lands on you directly...

Nv felt so miserable before... losing someone important.

Runaway train

2007-10-27T12:22:00.000+08:00

Call you up in the middle of the night, Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blow torch burnin, I was a key that could use a little turnin

So tired that I couldn't even sleep, So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep, One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now, I'm in too deep
There's no way out, This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train never goin back, Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere, Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile, Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded, Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go, I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain, With a ticket for a runaway train

And Everything seems cut and dry, Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

Bought a ticket for a runaway train, Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little outta touch, little insane, Just easier than dealin with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back, Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins, I runaway but it always seems the same

its tough being a nice guy

2007-06-23T03:30:00.000+08:00

Was it wrong to handle things step by step? if i cant multi-task, i am wrong too? why do i feel so miserable now? is it even necessary???

I understood

2007-05-29T23:26:00.000+08:00

When Andy was explaining some hard facts i should know, i finally understood why men on Earth are all short-lived beings, Yes... MEN... Any guys who dont get it, feel free to ask me.

I am back.

2007-05-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

Yes, my sincere apologies to those who read my blog, i know i have been gone for a long long long period of time.(Prolly only to you ZH, you are the only one who asked me about the blog.) I might be back, but i dont think i will be blogging that frequent as well. Just couldnt get the inspiration to blog anymore too.

Too much have happened recently, emotional turmoils, pent-up anger and frustration just where can i vent them? I dont really want to go through all these.. There are happy times as well, but they are all so short-lived.

This is so unlike myself, i just live to pass another day, sigh.. Who can really understand my plight? I just wished someone could give me a sense of direction into puting everything right and back on track again. Felt totally stuck in a shit hole, and i pretty deep one i must say. Why do i keep sliping while i struggle to get out? They say once you have hit the bottom of the pits, the only way to go is up, but why i feel it is as though one step forward and two steps back?

Man, i think i am having depression.. but i am much better now, the darkest moment was over 2-3 weeks ago.

Just a recap of whatever that had happened. Had an accident with a taxi on the road, one week before exams, $500 plus for repairs. Had another minor accident with the replacement bike in school, a night before the day of the 1st paper itself. Even though i made the effort to tell the mechanic that the bike was unsafe to ride. $25 TO TOW THAT DAMN JUNK BACK. Not forgeting all that undesirable events in the midst of getting everything running again. Got no confidence in my exams as well, yet my relationship turned sour... Not going to mention anymore, thinking of that can really make me very upset. Just want to look on the bright side.

These kept going on, and its turning me crazy soon. I just hope everything to be smooth sailing too.

Not forgeting to mention happy times too, exams finally over, my birthday was in this month (thanks Mei for your present from Australia), had to go chalet as planned.

Dont know how long more i can go on like this, I really hope to talk it out with you.

Back to MIT work again, just dont feel like doing anything, need a deputy desperately.

ICT in June, Shit...Still have got to clear my IPPT.

Back from Escape theme park today, but why are you still so unhappy?

Sigh.

I too want to be happy, sounds Gay, but .. nothing wrong with that right?
Ok, i want to have a sucessful life, sounds more like a man.
Crap.

Ah Ma, wish you have a speedy recovery.

I love you dear, Good Night.

Wont you get tired of guessing games?

2007-03-24T01:39:00.000+08:00

i guess i guess i guess guess guess.. Whatever.

Enough.

I am not guessing anymore.

If you are not telling, than forget it.

I tried all i could.

tired of guessing, you make me hate guessing so much.

Cant fall asleep

2007-03-03T03:18:00.000+08:00

Cant help thinking about us all these nights. Kept on thinking through what went wrong, but i still cant figure out with you keeping it mumed. Why? Just give me a sign or some sort of signals to me to let me know what was it that i did wrong. Why cant we just talk it out properly? why do you have to let me play the guessing game, Why do you always want to keep slient!!??????.... Wasnt i prepared to work things out?

Days gone by, living my life as it has used to be, but i just couldnt concentrate on anything. Left the house without locking the doors, skipped my meals without knowing too, went the wrong way on the road. . . etc...

Sped down the expressway every night, letting the cold wind gushed across my face. Everytime I could feel a moment of calm and peacefulness in the midst of the speeding and the rattling of the engine... I must be lucky to have yet to be caught and did not get myself into any mishaps. Unfortunately, the moment i reached my destination everything just come back again...

Drown myself with beer but i went broke halfway... pity, i couldnt get any more beer and still remained sober when i went home.

Why did you choose to leave at this point of time when i needed you the most. . .

Missing you badly and you really left without any explaination.

Stranded; lost in direction....

Yet another bucket of tears, a shattered heart and a broken relationship.

Pls come back. . .

. . .

I guess it all ends here

2007-03-02T02:53:00.000+08:00

Why do you always like to play russian roulette with me, and i am always the loser.. My mind is like a whirpool and i am so hurt. You called that working out together when you left me at this stage. My world is like crumbling, you promised me that we will work things out, but you forsaken me. . . I guess, i hurt myself by hurting you too...

I don't have plans and schemes
And I don't have hopes and dreams.
I don't have anything
Since I don't have you.

I don't have fond desires
And I don't have happy hours.
I don't have anything
Since I don't have you.

I don't have happiness
And I guess I never will ever again.
When you walked out on me
In walked misery
And he's been here since then.

I don't have much to share
And I don't have one to care.
I don't have anything
Since I don't have you, you, you

A love like ours is love that's hard to find
How could we let it slip away
We've come too far to leave it all behind
How could we end it all this way
When tomorrow comes and we'll both regret
The things we said today

All by myself
Don't wanna live
All by myself
Anymore

I’m here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl
It’s only you and me

Tell me how am I suppose to live without you
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I suppose to live without you
How am I suppose to carry on
When all that I’ve been livin’ for is gone

You know I love you so
You know I love you so and so
Even after all

Hey, I ought to leave the young thing alone,
but ain't no sunshine when she's gone,
ain't no sunshine when she's gone,
only darkness everyday.
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone,
and this house just ain't no home
anytime she goes away.

If I could Turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you would be mine
If I coule Turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you would be mine

Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me
And I, oh Baby, I don't know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in my life
And tell me now

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
Oh, how do I live

I thought that I was over you but it’s true, so true
I love you even more than I did before but darling what can I do
For you don’t love me and I’ll always be
crying. . .

So hurt. . . .

......
....
..
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Aint i busy?

2007-02-27T15:29:00.000+08:00

Yup, Darn it, i know that my blog is getting super outdated, Seriously, I dont have the time for personally grooming too. LOL! Luckily i manage to get a hair cut at least.Ok, lets rewind. . .

19th -Quarrelled again because i didnt notice my handphone was switched off!! Yup, but seriously, i am really sorry, you made me so upset by saying those words, i am not saying that this is a light matter, but its purely accidentally and you got so mad about me.

20th-Kept on msging. . . and quarreling. . . no mood to study!

21th-Alane didnt meet me for my burgers! LOL!.. its okay, maybe next time. Went to meet my bro, Ah feng and sis-in-law at mount faber. A moment of serenity as i looked over the scenery. Msged you wishing you all the best for you exams, and we continued to quarrel...

22th-and it goes on. . . . And finally, we patched up! Sorted things out.Had dinner and catch a movie "Norbit" together.

23th-Wanted to go esplanade to chill, since it was the weekend, but it was very late when we met, So we went somewhere nearby; Seletar Reservior.

24th-Watched the fireworks alone. before rushing over to the airport to send Cat off. Met the Hallanderz in the night at the railways station. Had a hearty chat, thought it was only 4 of us.

25th-Watched the fireworks alone again. There after went to find Aaron at his workplace. Had a 10% discount on the green milk tea i ordered. After that went to see yy if she is okay and she had a companion for supper already.So i went over to find ah pui at the hut at his house. Ya, it was a whole lot of crap shit till quite late.

26th-Start of the recess week, went to school in the evening to do printing and some cca stuff..

27th-Its "THE meeting" again later in the evening. LOL! Got to catch up in my studies too. Basically is a burnt recess week for me.

And here is for my man in Australia( still in Perth right?) Here is some CNY festive love for you.

17th 2359hrs

18th 2100hrs

19th 2100hrs

I still have another 3 more to post. Yah Singapore feeling rich this year. Wonder if there is a firework festival in August a not. If there is, conclusion is, Singapore is damn rich.

What do you want me to do?

2007-02-20T02:48:00.000+08:00

Really dont know what i should do now. . no mood to talk about it now..maybe tmr ba.

Just hope that everything would turn out fine.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!

2007-02-18T19:53:00.000+08:00

Taking this opportunity to blog.. well well.. cant remember all those that have past and gone in such a short period of time.. Lets see if i can remember them chronologically.

7th to 9th - usual school days without you by my side.

10th - 11th - nope, not that hopeful at all, but still looking on the bright side. . . On the 10th, AFTH opening at Harbour Front. I must say the performances are superb! Was there since 1130 to 5 plus. Really enjoyed myself.. and especially the chocolate fountain. Though it was ex, but all for charity. On the 11th, nothing much to say. . .

12th- 13th - Preparing for Valentine's Day, yup.. all the preparation and careful planing. Went back to all the places we have been to, to do a video for you. Really burnt out by the 13th, as i had to rush a summary report for Biobiz module. And there you go telling me, shall we celebrate on another day instead!! Pls dont wreck my plans! LOL!

14th - Surprise surprise, Mr. Pooh was at your doorstep! And the flowers as well, Thats was the most cumblesome thing, had been running from school to outside of school and back, just for the flowers! LOL! Later, we just had a simple dinner that we bought and brought over from Clementi and enjoy our dinner bathing in the moonlight by the "lake". . .

15th - Opps.. Kinda disappointed you when i said i didnt really like your gift. But seriously, its the thought that counts. I know that you are worried about me. Thanks dear. Spent the night at marina park.

16th -Shit, i cant remember a damn thing... Nothing happened today?

17th - Went to change for L size of your gift. Oppss, some how i saw the price .. Met in the night again to catch the fireworks. Yups, together with Aaron and Jasmine.

18th - Slack at home in the day, did a bit of revision, very little.Now, going out soon to catch fireworks again. But this time, i am going alone, because you want to play... MAHJONG! LOL!.
Will post up the fireworks for someone in Australia soon. Haha. See ya.

Happy Valentine's Day

2007-02-15T02:38:00.000+08:00

Sorry to all, my blog is outdated. No time to blog now, will be back during the recess week coming up next week. Hang in there!!

Been through a hell of roller coaster ride

2007-02-07T01:06:00.000+08:00

1th , 2nd Feb - School days, while spending the night studying with you, and i brought you to bottle tree park in the night on the 2nd.

3rd, 4th Feb - Cant remember, too many unhappy things happened. Dont wish to mention them anymore.

5th Feb - I am hurt, but i didnt know that i hurt you even deeper than me. I am really sorry.... i didnt meant it............... I dont know what is going to happen next.

6th Feb - Went to look for you, I dont know have you forgiven me anot.. i really dont wish you would tell me something that i dont wish to hear when i get better...

This is my 101th post!!

2007-01-31T01:27:00.000+08:00

Some updates as requested.

25th- A usual school day, just that in the evening was MIT meeting. My venue got changed twice due to some cork ups in the booking venue acct. 3 new members have been recruited! I hope it can ease the load of my beloved committee memebers by having more ppl to help.

26th- Its a Friday!! We sort of like bury the hatchet through sms, before we met for dinner? Duck rice with wwf and lc. After that we went window shopping in Bugis. There is a children arcade on the 3rd level of Seiyu called Whimsky?. There is a game meant for couples, any couple reading this, you should go try it. We went seperate ways when Seiyu was closing. There after, i brought her to Marina South promenade and had a little chat.

27th- Stay home Saturday.

28th- Went out to Art Friend in Bras Basah Complex, had to buy some materials to do something special.After that i met up with Hallanderz in Chinatown. What a "Chinatown", Buzzling with ppl everywhere. Evening, we head over to Suntec for shelter, in view of the heavy clouds approaching Chinatown. Had Carls Jr fish burger before i actually went home for dinner. Hehehe, small in size but big in appetite.

29th and 30th- just normal school days, except that we are studying together in school in the evening.

Should I be happy now? Still asking myself this question after all that we went through.

Yet again

2007-01-25T02:31:00.000+08:00

Why do you always like to lift me up so high in spirit and the next thing you do is to let me fall into the deep abyss.

What are you thinking?

对你的思念是一天又一天孤单的我还是没有改变美丽的梦何时才能出现
秋天的风一阵阵的吹过想起了去年的这个时候你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
...
最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过在我最需要你的时候
没有说一句话就走最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过

seventeen days

2007-01-21T01:21:00.000+08:00

Dont really know how i shall begin this, my stomach still hurts but i am more upset than just having gastric pain.

I thought everything would be normal again when you came to see me this afternoon. Perhaps, you came to see me out of guilt? You kept me guessing again...Thanks for cheering me up, but that wasnt what i wanted. You looked more unhappy than ever...

Fading away...

i still cant accept the fact, its just too sudden.

Lost... should i still carry out my plans?

17 days... is it the end?

Come up to meet you, tell you Im sorry
You dont know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
Im going back to the start

Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh ohh

Coldplay- The Scientist

What went wrong. . .

2007-01-19T20:36:00.000+08:00

15th- Just a normal sch day, nothing much too...

16th- The begining of the ending? I dont know, perhaps its the quarrel in the sms again. . . i am sorry, really... i still think its purely a misunderstanding... I hope you felt it the same way as i do.

17th- Made you breakfast and accompanied you to see a doctor, but i had to leave halfway as i have to attend classes.

18th- A series of disagreement in sms, perhaps its really ending soon, but i really dont understand what went wrong.

19th -Went to look up for you, but you are so reluctant to meet me. . . I am sorry again, I msged your friend to help me.I admit that i might be insensitive to you, but you still want to keep me guessing, i am really baffled.

What is left of me now???? A broken heart, a pair of swollen eyes, and a pail of tears. I cried for you. . .

I really dont understand why you have had to keep saying those hurting words when we have not really tried to understand one another better. .

Perhaps, its really true:"they stumble that run fast". Leaving it in the hands of fate.as i couldnt fathom why you had to think that way.

有多少爱能重来? 多少人愿意等待? 失去之后才明白
走进回忆的安排一幕一幕的对白上演我们的未来
期待原来是一种伤害深爱的人一离开是我不敢
忽略你给我的爱

现在我只想回到最初的时候不愿让你再泪流
寂寞之后只有你会陪着我现在我只想
回到最初的时候我知道你还爱着我亲爱的你
请你握紧我的手请你看看我请看需要你的我
真的需要你的我只要你回头

A late update

2007-01-14T23:38:00.000+08:00

Somewhat didnt really want to blog, but... for my BURGERS!LOL! I have been threatened to have no burgers if i do not updated.LOL! Anyway, here it goes,

5th,6th,7th- Cant really exactly remember what had happened during these few days. All I know we went to many places close to nature, J hill, Upper and Lower Seletar...When was the day we went to have ice-cream together? *Opps* my memory is failing me....

8th- School offically starts again, Oh did i start to skip lectures again as well? Anyway, first week is just introduction, nothing that impt. Whats more impt is my time-table planning. Wanted to take French initially, then i found out French is under GER-electives and not GER-PRE. Which means kinda "wasting AUs". Rather spend it on my minor. Lucky, I found a lot for accounting.

9th- No lessons today, because tutorials have not officially started yet. But what did i do? Short-term memory.. i really cannot remember.. *SHIT*

10th- I really cannot remember. All i remembered someone brought me egg-tart today, then we had lunch at lot 1 before we went over to sch. Oh oh.. In the evening we had our dinner at PS kopitiam before going over to Bottle tree village. It was suppose to be an enjoyable night by the beach, sadly, we got bitten by sand flies and mozzies. Darn, multiple spots on our feets.

11th- Sch as usual, nothing much to mention. Quarrelled with someone on sms.

12th- Sch as usual too, had MIT meeting in the evening.

13th- We burried the hatchet. Went to Asphoon to change 4T oil for my bike, there after met up with Shan at IMM. I had my lunch there while she didnt want to eat.(AGAIN!) Walked around there for a while before i came back home to put down the excess oil. Then after we went to Kranji reservior.*OOO* still looks the same as before.(I used to go there when i was young...) We just sat there and almost froze to death. I tell you, sea breeze in the evening after a heavy shower is a NO-NO. *LOL* We left only when it was close to 9pm and headed down to Great world city to find the symbolic ah pui at Greatworld and LC. Finally, dinner at subway just a few minutes away to their closing. After dinner was just chatting all the way till wee hours. Hallanderz came down as well.

14th- Is a stay home Sunday! nothing much to say too. Thats why i had a chance to update my blog. phew..

So do i smell those burgers coming?

updates

2007-01-05T01:22:00.000+08:00

A summarized one for the past few days.

1st - Celebrated Elaine's Birthday, hope she likes sun flower! So bright and cheery! Spent the night with Shan.

2nd - Stayed home

3rd - Went exploring Lim Chu Kang, Neo Tiew, Sarimbun ....

4th - Something awry happened. . .

Happy New Year 2007

2007-01-01T17:17:00.000+08:00

To all my friends out there, Happy New Year! Hope 2007 would be a fruitful year for all.

My blog is pretty out of date i must say, but i dont really feel like blogging. Anyway here is a summarized one for myself.

26th Boxing Day - Nothing special, MIT meeting and then back home.

27th - Went kite flying in the afternoon with Shan, surprisingly, our kite flew on its own because of the strong gust of wind. We tied the kite to a shelter and let it soar on its own when the storm came. The kite stayed in the skies for quite some time in a heavy shower, before it came crashing down.

Had dinner at Fish n Co, then later met up with wwf and gf before we caught a midnight movie, "Midnight Sun".

28th - MIT meeting and results were out. "No comments" Damn disappointed with myself.

29th - Short term memory, WTH happened?

30th - Went out with Shan in the evening to Art friend, but it was closed. There after we went to Marina to catch Death note 2 but it was 2 hours before the screening starts. We went over the Marina prawn pond, but it was crowded, and hence we went to marina pier for some sight-seeing over the sea. Headed back home after the movies.

31st - Didnt really countdown but caught the fireworks at Esplande. Sorry ZH, didnt reply your sms because my phone bill was way exceeded my allowance. After the fireworks was meeting with Hallanderz. And there we went seperated ways. Sat down on the breakwaters at ECP, and chatted. Supper for me at the famous Lavander Zhu Za tang (Pig organs soup).

1st - Still at home now, got to celebrate Elaine's birthday later. Happy Belated!

This is for my friend, Mr.Lim Zhi Hao, so sorry didnt reply you and didnt send you back at the airport.

Countdown 2007 fireworks, Enjoy!

Merry Christmas To All!

2006-12-25T14:54:00.000+08:00

Just want to say Merry Christmas to everyone that I know. Its a lonely christmas! Haha, a song by Eason Chan. Here is the youtube.

Anyway, what a fall from the bike to start off Christmas day, *suay*, dont want to go into the context, because it was something stupid. Althought it was just a gentle drop, a little scratch and a broken lever, with my character, a bit of things i can grumble for a very long time. I mind every small details. . . Oh man, watched "night at the museum". It should be a funny show, cause the rest of them enjoy it, but to me... i am still thinking of the bike.

Nothing much to blog now, enjoy your Christmas day!

I am so lazy, right?

2006-12-22T17:31:00.000+08:00

I know i am pretty much not been blogging, that is because my lappie isnt around, and no, my lappie is not back yet. I am using my desktop, but i hate using the desktop because the keyboard sucks. Dont wish my blog to be out of date, so here i am.

18/12/06
When to sent in my lappie for repairs at Leng Kee road, somewhere near redhill, After that was,MIT outing! We went to mind's cafe at Princep Street( is it spelt like that?) Scattered rain showered Singapore randomly. We were not spared either when we had to head to bugis for steamboat at Chong Qing. Didnt know NTU students got discount there, and its strictly NTU students, no NUS, no SMU, no SIM too. Dont ask me why, i dont know too. Was suppose to meet up with Plt 9, but it was raining too heavily, couldnt make my way to party world. So sorry! We will meet again! Headed home, slightly drenched.

19/12/06
Was suppose to have MIT meeting, but i cancelled it because my lappie wasnt around. So sorry MIT peeps! Stayed at home and did my stuff on a desktop, bits of here and there. Then i was suppose to meet someone, haha but something cropped up again, next time ba. Spent the night watching teebee.

20/12/06
Exco meeting in the afternoon. John Birthday on Christmas' eve, but we celebrated with him after the meeting. Had a log cake cum birthday cake. LOL! Happy 25th Birthday. After that went home and spent the night watching tv, Where is my lappie!? sianz....EPL highlights, Wah, Chelsea's drogba power! Man U disappointing, can lose to Westham, ZH, Man U couldnt feel that you are supporting them with your 109 bucks jersey. After highlights i went over to WZ hostel. Ken(rommie), HT, WK, ZH, and LP were there. They were intending to play the whole night out till dawn breaks. LOL! 2 plus am and 3 of them already fell asleep. LP went back to hall 8, because.. she wanted to SLEEP! LOL! ZH wanted to sit on my bike, so i pillion him around and Watha!, police in NTU at this time. ZH, can you dont jump off the bike so suddenly? i got shocked and nearly lost my balance too. Since some of them are already sleeping and WZ is playing WOW, i left for home around 3.30am. Rode in a slight drizzle, darn, it was cold. Oh ya, WK's shoes got stolen at the hostel sad...

21/12/06
Was suppose to have the next MIT meeting, but i had to postpond it again, because my lappie isnt already. Hey, didnt the counter guy told me it will be ready in 2 days? Went to have my lunch at Bukit Panjang plaza. Hey, i didnt know that you need a member card to dine at Kopitiam. OMG, i need a card to eat at kopitiam!!!!! i already ordered my food and it was until the stall owner asked me for the card. I was like,(in chinese)"what card?" and she goes, "the card lah" LOL! "you dont have the card ah? you want to purchase one?". I replied, "No thanks, i dont dine often at kopitiam" and she goes on promoting about the card, nah... next time maybe. The card staff had to help me tap her card instead as i was paying cash. So i paid the staff instead. There after, i went over to the library to borrow books. Man, my favourite library would be there, so near my house and yet there are so many Computer and IT books. Made a quick selection before i went to shop for a new pair of shoes and a new pair of sandals. Hahaha, i think the sales girl didnt expect a nerd looking guy(i didnt style my hair)had so much purchasing power. Went back home to have my dinner before i head over to DXO for NTU overdrive 2006. An awesome event i must say. Many nice bands too. But didnt really enjoy it as i was siting beside the drum set. All the drummers were so high and the really beat the daylight out of the drums. It was too loud for me. We stayed on even after the whole event was over and the resident band was playing for us. David made a dedication to *ahem* prez and vice-prez. The song was the reason by hoobastank. (The reason why we are here?) Just joking... Left and met up with wwf around 1am and we talked till around 3am where i was too tired to carry. Headed home.

22/12/06
Did some cleaning and maintenance to the bike, Ah... passed and certified safe to ride. Took almost the whole afternoon just with the bike, and here i am blogging
now... Nothing on later, yup. Going to rest for now...

Some photos.

A long entry

2006-12-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

Not going to give a damn about my grammar, punctuations, spellings... etc. I dont know where should i begin, lets just do it chronologically.

161206
12 plus am, i had to crack my brain to think of more ideas and have a good sense of creativity to design websites. Lack of materials what more can i produce? finally went to bed after i completed 2 of 'em.

There after i woke about around 10am. Had to prepare myself for seminar. Bought brunch near the Laska stall which i think is one of the best laska in Spore. And the good thing is, its near my house as well. Didnt had laska though, i bought wanton noodles. Ate my brunch in a hurry after i reached home, as i was pressing for time. Had to meet them at 11.30am at TP mrt. Since i am riding, told Impre I will be at the tower straight and meet him at 12 instead. Reached there just on the spot.

its was some financial planning seminar by "Nicholas Goh and associates", which i think its more like encouraging us to invest with prudential. Did thought of getting out of the rat race, but i still have other concerns that i should deal with 1st. The whole thingy lasted till it was close to 3pm. There after we decided to have a drink at Amoy Street.

Never been to Amoy Street, made many turns round and many calls for direction. No thanks to the lady who "horlanded" me. Made my way there and everyone had already settled down with food on the table. Darn! After the drink, it was to Marina. I had a special task to do. Its to get a present for Jasmine.

Sadly, I couldnt find Cardcaptor and have to make do with Naruto anime figurines.Saw my sec school best friend, Caleb! Did you put on weight again? *LOL* Josephine was around too. Oh the lovey-dovey are just like magnets. Anyway, i guess he was rushing off, hence he didnt talk to me much.

Made my way down to vivo for class gathering, but i was an hour early as the actual meeting time was 6pm. Out of bordom, i made a prank call to Liping, and blamed her for telling me to meet at 5pm. Sorry to have made you felt gulity for an hour plus!! But at least i know that you are a kind soul who feels bad for wasting ppl's time ma. *LOL* Serious, i cant stand those who always make ppl wait and dont apologise, as though it was i who came way too early. Anyway. I sat outside on those stone blocks outside of the shopping centre itself, facing Sentosa and looking at . . . girls. *LOL* Looking at the surrounding and everyone else too ok. Only when it was close to 6, ZH and WK came. There was also special guest appearance, Mr. Chua Thian Leng.

*Haha* a repetition of history, JC class gathering couldnt make up our minds to where to eat just like the same as my OG group. Guess where i suggested in the end? OMG! ASIA KITCHEN AGAIN? *LOL* Nah, we nearly ended ourselves there but there was no immediate seats for 10. Luckily, its neighbour restaurant had seats for all of us! Thai-express for dinner. A short walk about in Vivo after dinner before we chill out at Pacific coffee co. Left the group near close to 10pm.

Went over to KTV at Chinatown. Its was Jasmine Birthday, and this was planned like close to 3 weeks b4? Felt so shagged, been out for so long!! The whole KTV session ended close to 1am and they still wanted to hang around to chat.

Went to Railway station and the hallanderz chatted for very very long. Its been such a long time since we had such a hearty talk. The only one not present was Cat who is still in Australia. *Haha* Everyone of us are saying that we are like very old already. To me, 21 is considered the begining of the end. Its where life will begin to make a downturn gradually. Had a lot of adult talks; life, marriage, carrers, ... etc. Hey! have we really grown up? But there was still a kid in all of us, then we talked about other crap as well. Made our way home around 4.30am. Instantly turned to a dead log when i reached home.

171206

Only woke up at 1pm when my brother was talking loudly on the phone. My "handy alarm clock" which never fails to talk loudly. So annoying!!! Had my brunch and did a bit of emailing here and there before i left home around 4pm to get a hair cut. Riding in the heavy storm, actually its been quite sometime since i ride in a heavy downpour, so i didnt mind. Wasnt really satisifed with the new hair cut. Nvm, wait for next time. There after bought a card for Vivien's birthday as i didnt know what she likes. I reached home to have dinner before i went over to her Bday celebrate at around 8.30pm. The cake came in just in time when i arrived. *Haha*

Left for school at around 10pm to help Impre to take the video encoder. There after i reached back home about 11pm.

I AM SO TIRED. FULL STOP.

Blogger is too slow to upload photos again. Used Imageshack instead.

Some pts that i missed out.
-hallanderz has aquired a Class 2A status after Aaron has changed his bike. What are you waiting for ANDY!!
-My laptop is spoilt! There is a line across the screen, have to go and get it fixed.
-Missing quite a lot of home cook meal next week. Sorry Mummy.
-Thanks for your concern Abi, i am ok.

Happiness must be felt and seen at the same time

2006-12-16T01:28:00.000+08:00

Lika out of ideas on how to design the remaining MC templates. Didnt had a good day.. What was it that i wanted to blog? i 4gotten about them all. Oh dear, occupation hazzard, you forget everything else except codes, dreamweaver, fireworks, photoshop..

I guess i will have to come back again once i remember.

Packed weekend ahead.

Food poisoning!

2006-12-13T01:07:00.000+08:00

Gee, how "fortunate". Food poisoning after that supper.. Mention of fried oyster and i am going to puke right in front of you! Thinking of it making me feeling uncomfortable all over again. For the past 2 days, you can find me either in the loos or on my bed, except this afternoon had to go back school. Doctor looked as if i was there to con his MC. Nah.. wasnt for your MC, just had to survive this ordeal, battling with the poison.

So fast, its going to be christmas again. It reminds me of 2 songs sigh.. Lonely christmas and I wont be home for christmas. Will Youtube here and post it here other time. One is funny and another is another sappy sad song..

The funny one goes like that, "Its christmas time again, its time to be nice to the people you cant stand all year..."

Meanwhile, was listening to this...

Okay, nothing much for this entry, i just hope that i could let everything go... I am trying my best...

Embarking on a new journey?

2006-12-11T01:35:00.000+08:00

In case you didnt know, my title of the blog may not be related to the blog itself at all, it sometime is just a moment of reflection for me.

Woke up at 2pm today, getting later each day, i got to adjust myself back soon. Spent the afternoon playing with my laptop, just idling here and there could actually took away so much of my time. Productivity was a total zero. In the evening met up with Mei, and she insisted on treating me ice-cream. Thank you Mei! Hope you will enjoy your Thailand trip.

In the night was chatting on msn till now, yes sadly, productivity is still zero. Made a short trip to have supper at sunshine place. Now i am so bloated.

Thats all for today, my family is back home btw. No more home alone.

Disappointed

2006-12-10T04:29:00.000+08:00

I just came back from catching a movie with wwf,kk and their gfs. We watched battle of wits. Very interesting show of the acient military tatics, told KS last time that it should be a very good movie. Well, it lived up to its expectation. But then, i did not live up to mine!!! I was an utter disappointment to myself!!

My sincere apologies to Huishan, something just got the worse of me.i am lost for words when it comes to socialising. Just casual socialising i meant. If its work-related, I believe that i will be able to handle it since I have such a heavy committment in school. What a woodblock i was. Too shy? I dont know, *haha* If ZH or WK read this, they are going to laugh at me!! But i tried my best to talk a bit. perhaps, when you carry a touch for someone already, everyone else would be imperfect. I know, this isnt the right way of thinking. I am not being fair to myself either. I am really sorry, very very sorry. Please dont get the impression that i am a boring person, just that i dont know how to talk under such situation. I need more time. First it was Liane, now its Huishan. I dont know what am i saying now...

Yes, i am not good in talking to girls. Opps.. but i really must admit that. Strangers are still all right, because i dont know them and not in the near future either. But friends of friends, i think i better work on that...

Yet again, how did i get someone's no. at the club? Wasnt i afraid of getting bashed up? Weird, what am i?????

Grrr... i am still disappointed with myself.

Good night loser..... *Shit*

Boring life

2006-12-09T02:52:00.000+08:00

Woke up in the afternoon again. What a lazy bum, and the 1st thing i did was to switch on my laptop and check the MSN. Mr Lim ZH was online and popped him a msg. Told him i have not brush my teeth yet. *LOL* After brushing my teeth, went out to have my lunch. After lunch was some bike maintenance. Oh man, i have to look after 3 bikes! *LOL* Since both of my brothers are overseas. Felt like a technician today. 3 bikes for the whole afternoon and my hand was all black and greasy with all the work. Manual labour with all those muscular aches = more aches.

Did some MIT stuff in the evening and went out to buy back dinner.I was suppose to meet Mei in the evening, but she's busy with her stuff today. Carried on working on the laptop and i was so bored to death. How am i able to understand those adobe books without the Cds!! In case you didnt know, i borrowed a lot of books from the library and they are as thick as a dictionary. Think i have to get the Cds somehow.*grrr*

10pm, watched my favourite tv serial. Triumph in the skies, *swweeee leh* Got plane, got romance, got humour... what else can i ask for? But i missed out at least 15 episodes during exams period.

Supper and how i miss having supper. The actual fact is that i just came back from having supper alone. My stomach was like groaning since 1030pm. I wanted to go to the Ke Ai Ji along Kent Ridge. When i reached there, It was no longer around. Bought over by some other stall.*Darn* wasted trip. Made a loop around clementi, but no western food around either. I thought my last choice would be the western stall at Sunshine place. Made my way there and its closed!!What the... Sad, i ended having fried oysters and almond beancurd with longan.

Yesterday supper with KS and ZH, i was telling them about Ke Ai Ji and yet its has closed down. Okay, whatever. So bored. Time to sleep? Good night.

adobe adobe and more adobe for holidays

2006-12-07T16:08:00.000+08:00

Darn piece of shit to this blog man, whatever, had to type again.

Chalet at downtown east was over so quickly. Everyone wanted to go home. So sad, see, mahjong all night long, till the next day you all didnt had energy to do anthing.

Went to Sentosa yesterday in the midst of the chalet. Met up with the Kansanovas, though not everyone came. Had a fun-filled day at Sentosa. When i reached there with Kev, they were sun-taning under a huge patch of grey clouds. *LOL* (obviously there wasnt any sun out there) So we just sat on the sand and crap for an hour or so. We started to play games when Kai Ning and Yan Ling came. We played touch ruby and ultimate frisby when the big dude came. Its been ages since i had such vigourous exericise! Now suffering from post-exercise muscular-aches. My whole body is aching here and there, just like an old man. *LOL* Some light drizzle came under the grey clouds but that didnt chase us away. We played on till the sun came back again.After games, we went over Vivo city for dinner. This is by far the worse dinner at vivo city, too spoilt for choice that we spend quite some time walking around the whole of vivo city just to have a dinner. Cant make up our mind, there was kopitiam, banquet, the chicken rice shop, superdog, white dog cafe, long john silver, burger king, tung lok signature, carnivore, go india, dian xiao er, hong kong kim gary, tera, secret recipes and finally was it asia kitchen? was too hungry after games and i didnt take notice of the name, just fill my stomach. Thats more important. After dinner was Candy Empire. Then we all headed home while i had to claim my luggage at Hall 14. Thanks Lin, for bringing my bag from Chalet.

Anyway like what Lawson had said, Kansanovas is living up to its name. Couple after couple, some unexpected couples. *LOL* Eh, Lawson, i cant smell mine leh.. *LOL*
Ok, gotta run along for now. see ya. No pics, cause no Cammie. Think have to ask HD.

Fancy, the pot calling the kettle black. Worse of all, the pot doesnt know its the pot.

You call that a holiday?

2006-12-04T00:31:00.000+08:00

First and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEI! Welcome to Club 21.

Okies, so how do i get started? Got lots of things to get it down on my blog. *bah!* Anyhows,
Mr Lim came back empty handed! Met up with him just yesterday, rather the day before.(passed 12)We caught "Open Season" with WK at Lido and did some window browsing here and there. *LOL* Didnt know the Manchester United shop wasnt around anymore and we made a fultile trip there.Didnt do anything much in town, after the movie was to head straight home. Oh ya, Mr. Lim wants to learn canto eh? *Haha* Lei oil ziu leng lui ah? *Hehehehe* All the best wor.

All right, no more honkie talks. My family is going on a holiday without me! *sobz sobz*, The reason? Because I had my fair share this year when i went to Taiwan and Hong Kong. Anyways, I have a chalet as well. Dont feel like going though. Had to pay and pay. Since when did *A* becomes PayAndPay. Whats more, my whole December is partially planned in advance for me, my other committment besides sleeping. Meetings after meetings, yes, i can sense that again.*Haha* Kanza outing clashed with chalet, Dont want to miss out my Kanzanovas too. We will see how it goes. Hmm, what am i gonna do when i am home alone?

Was packing up my stuff today, spent a whole lot of hours just packing and change the beddings for Mr.Poggie.Had a warm bathe too, but he was too afraid and bit me twice. *Ouch* Then, i was tidying all those notes lying around the house and this is what i did 1 month before.

This is 12.5cm length X 20.5cm width X 4.3cm height of compressed 5.5modules of notes. couldnt finish the 0.5 of it.

And a look at my handwriting. Tiny little ants crawling on the paper.

Going to meet Andy for supper now. Got to run.

Anyway,

Are you giving me more reasons to hate you?

1 last paper!

2006-12-01T00:59:00.000+08:00

I need money, i need S$9k! Sobz sobz..... my dream is flying away. . .

Thinking of you

2006-11-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

Are you lonely? Are you happy today? Did you have your favourite drink today?

I hope you will be happy always. . .

Wont you get tired, running in my mind?

Nvm, you are still so beautiful to me.
Was looking at your photos again. . . Sigh, Do you know?. . .

Okay, i still have 2 more papers to go. Go go go!! *Woof! Woof!*
Look what i found?

My Mum was clearing out her stuff, and she found this!! Hahaha Yay!! I am a graduated! PAP-Kindergarten Grad! *LOL* Okay, i better not comment on the Garment, later kana sue.

End of my post, i am still thinking of you. . . Enter my dreams tonight will ya?

Mei's B-Day celebration

2006-11-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

Just gonna make this a short one i hope. Went to mei's B-dae celebration. So excited to see her again! Was the 1st to arrived and got mobbed down by her family members. Especially her mum, so friendly and keep asking me to eat. Mei too, keep asking me to eat. hahaha, i know i lost weight, but i cant stomach down so much food. Then after that, more of her friends came. Yes, felt a bit awkward, but was chatting to one of her friend she knew in Melbourne. Her name is Liane. Because she was in the same situation like me! Didnt know anyone else there. Not that i didnt know the ppl there, but i dont clique well with them. Met my sec sch best friend's most hated person, there were a few other fairsians, then there was Lydia, whom i nearly couldnt recognised!! She nearly cease to exist in my world. *LOL. But too bad, i am kinda boring person, because i am bogged down with a lot of troubles in my mind. Hope Liane didnt felt that i am such a bore. I got to apologise. No photos for today, will ask my mei to send me. *LOL. Left early as i wanted to hit the books, yet i couldnt concentrate for now. My eyes are very tired. Will try to study after this. Hope Mei will like the present.

Was weaving in and out of traffic just now. What a cheap thrill! I wasnt really thinking of doing that, just that car drivers can never make up their mind properly which lane they want to be in, and i got to thrilled to doing that i and weaved in and out again after that. Twice, thereafter better not get myself into trouble with the law now.

Btw, ZH is coming back in less than 7 hours time? Oh dear, dont think he remember my Australian Abalone!! Forgot to remind him, Australian Abalone are nice! Then there is the Japanese cockles! Its a huge sea hum! Thats the best hum i ever eaten. Why am talking about sea food here? Okay, will try to study a few chapters before i go to bed. Goodbye.

Pardon my spelling mistakes and all those punctuation errors, i didnt really check them.

It hurt so bad to miss you...Do you even know that? Bet you dont even know that i am missing you . . .

Thinking of you again?

2006-11-24T03:30:00.000+08:00

Just reached home after a quick supper with Aaron. We are the AAAS gang now.. LOL! Aka Hallanderz. Aaron wanted a meet up for supper at the raiway station.Noone is free and i was only free after i complete study one chapter of physics. So, it ended that Aaron and Jas met up with me at BB mac instead. I was there just last week right? or was it last last week? nvm.

Had a fish meal and updated Aaron on hows the rest doing, since i am always the one who actively keep in contact with them. Spent about an hour plus at Mac before we headed home.

Dont know why, recently i keep thinking of you, if only i had a chance to prove to you how much i love you.

Well, at least i can control my feelings better now, unlike the past where i could just breakdown.

Cant force you to love me, but i just hope that you are happy always.

3 down, 3 to go

2006-11-23T02:11:00.000+08:00

Halfway there, holidays are coming, holidays are coming. Does it rings a bell? Its the old coka cola advertisement, the one with santa driving a whole truck after truck of coke containers. Much more relaxed today, wanted to wind down a little, but well, at this hour i am sick of going out alone again.LOL!

I realised alot of things are related to economics. Especially the income elasticity of demand. LOL!. The more money I have, the better goods i want to buy, and that is a normal good! Many things are similar to this analogy. If i have money, i would buy a car instead of a bike. If i have a lot time more than 48 hours a day, i would rather study better in the past. If i have a choice, i would take another course.If i am super fit, i rather be a pilot.If you have a choice, what would you choose? If he has a choice what would he choose? If they have a choice, what would they choose? So many ifs, LOL! Too late for me now, just have to make best with i have now. I hope it aint too late for you.

Bought this for my Mei, just wanted to show Elaine, eh.. my taste not bad leh?

Btw, i cant stand some people...i am speechless about you. you are so irksome. Let me tell you something.

1.I hate talking to the walls, please reply to let me know you are alive.
2.I hate people who like to waste my time.
3.I hate people who are impolite and do not acknowledge the effort of others.
4.I hate people who do not explain themselves.
5I hate people who question so much but do not agree at the end; which brings back to point 2.
6.I hate people who agreed on something, but changed at the very last moment; which brings back to point 2 and point 4.
7.I hate people who always expect 1st, then to give in 1st.
8.I hate people who think that the are so great so high-above themselves, but actually there are others out there greater than you.
9.I hate people who treats me like dirt when i am not needed, how the hell did we know each other in the 1st place?
10.I hate people who always comes late and do not apologise;which brings back to point 2, point3 and point4.

*I hate people who make use of me!*

Here are my 10 pointers for you. If anyone else of you falls into all the 10 categories, then how did i get to know you? You are Number 1 in my hate list!*LOL*

If i ever see you, i gonna humtum bola you!!!!

Dev C Dev C

2006-11-22T01:41:00.000+08:00

Whole day programing programing programing, pprrooggraammiinng. Computing computing computing, ccoommppuuttiingg. Staring at the screen for too long, feeling so sleepy. Hope WK and I can at least get a B for computing.... the hopeless hoping.

Concentrate!!

2006-11-20T01:50:00.000+08:00

Trying to concentrate, but i drifted away! Then i stumbled upon the sketch show. LOL! Here's for the all the billard fanatics.

2 down, 4 to go

2006-11-18T19:11:00.000+08:00

Left 4 more papers! Really dont feel like studying and get over with it, haha, but i promised myself to do my best though... so after all, I still will study. Mug on Muggers!

Relaxed a bit today, as i went town to buy a present. Quite expensive and i wanted to keep it for myself, *HAHAHA* too bad, its for ladies. Yup, sorry to have pestered Elaine to help me. Anyway, Singapore is really small. Just a short trip of roughly 2-3 hours outside and i met 4 familar faces. Strangely, they dont seems to recognise me!First, i saw my ex-collegue Ros. We met each other face to face and yet she didnt even noticed me, so we just walked past each other. Nevermind, so i carried on walking. Outside centrepoint, I saw Wenjia. Still looks cute and pretty to me.*Haha* She doesn't know i blog, so it doesnt matter if she knows that i mention her. Anyway, its a compliment! Sadly, I dont even know did she remember me, even though i stared at her with the surprised look. We just walked past each other like that. Before i left town and was on my way to the carpark, I saw Slyvia and just like the rest, I am Mr. Frankenstein from sub-planet Pluto. When i was at SLS, i saw another ex-fairsian, but we dont really know each other. I dont even remember his name.

Lastly, i want to say, i treasure friendship alot, i am glad that i have a group of good JC friends. Friends to me are very important. As there is a chinese saying, (cant remember the exact words)"内靠家人，外靠朋友" Friends are my rapport. Thank you to all those close friends whom are true to me and there for me always.
Found out somethings recently.I cant stand some people who self-proclaimed that they are my close friends, and yet they talk behind my back. I dont mind if they talked to someone one that i dont know of, but i hate those who spread rumours to my friends. In what way did i offend you?? Since we all know each other, why cant we trash things out? Give me my due respect if you have some sense of humanity. I rather have a few true friends better than a number of hypocrites.

So dissapointing...

Some updates

2006-11-13T03:31:00.000+08:00

1.I am prepared! to repeat modules. *LOL* I regret that i didnt start studying earlier. But no pt now, hope for the best.
2.My Mei came back from Aus liao, Haha, cant wait to see her!
3.Next on the list is you ZH. Wonder if you will bringing an Aussie girl back. Jk!
4.My mind is still in a whirlpool, i hope my life is not turning run in cycles like my mind. I will be fine!
5.Lastly, 对不起，我爱你。

Wont be blogging till the weekends i presume, and i thank you all for your encouragement. I will try my best at least!

Ps: Elaine, think i really need your help on that matter, Thank U! :)

Feeling Odd

2006-11-11T03:40:00.000+08:00

Feeling very weird lately, even though somethings are none of my business, but why do i feel this way? How should i take it? Something good or bad?

Who can share my woes??

I cant take it anymore

2006-11-07T14:29:00.001+08:00

I flung Chem quiz, even the most confident subject. Physics quiz was a goner, dont know what i was doing. Hope computing was fine.....

L.O.S.T

2006-11-06T02:08:00.000+08:00

I am lost. I dont know what i am doing.I noticed that my table is full of my hair. Been pulling my hair when i study.Dont worry, i still have lots of them.

1.Went to Jieying's Birthday celebration on Saturday. Happy 21st!
2.Tried to STUDY...Didnt cover much, hopefully i will be able to do well with some last minute revision. Highly unlikely.
3.Lost my self-confidence.
4.Looking forward to happy days after exams.
5.9 more days and counting.
6.Surprisingly, my group's presentation was well praised! Phew!

Someone please pick me up from the lost and found box, I need a torch out of the gloom, Whatever, I just need some directions.

E-Learning Week

2006-10-31T21:15:00.000+08:00

Still as stressed, Oh dear, So many modules so little time! Begining to fear that i wont do well.But Dino mei mei will sure say when exams are over, i will have a great sense of satisfaction.

1.Presentation done, chem quizz over, left computing, maths and physics quizz.
2.Tutorials, gave up.
3.Went to Geylang East Library to borrow C textbook, reach there and librarian cant find.(Waste time again.. ARgH!)
4.My replacement watch is ready for collection, but i am not ready to collect.(Where got time?)
5.Got so many outing to attend when December comes, 1,2,3,4..yup, 4 outing and 1 chalet(no money still have to go chalet???)
6.For friends who like to sing, check out www.cacimpresario.com. Join and support k!
7.Feel like catching a movie again, but ... i think i better study. Concentrate!
8.Here is a vid on cheeky Ntu students comment on lecturer.Dont the lecturer feel insulted?

Going back to the books.ByeBye!

hyper mugg mode = no frequent blogging

2006-10-27T17:41:00.000+08:00

Fellow mates, prep for exams yet? Have you hit the panic button? AHHHHHHHH!!!!!Anyway, thought that it is not really good to leave the blog outdated. Since i will most probably be busy studying, have decided to blog in point form.

1.Hyper mugg mode = no frequent blogging
2.Pictures tell a thousand words-so here is a picture to tell you how i feel.

But you cant tell much from that picture as there is only one word on it.LOL!
3.My Bdae watch was misplaced in the midst of the repair. Was told that i will get a new replacement. (What the . . . , waste my time making trips down)
4.I need a hair cut.
5.I need more time to study!

With the last point in mind, i am outta here. Good luck mates!

爱过你

2006-10-23T00:53:00.000+08:00

不够时间好好来爱你早该停止风流的游戏愿被你抛弃就算了解而分离不愿爱的没有答案结局
不够时间好好来恨你终於明白恨人不容易爱恨消失前用手温暖我的脸为我证明我曾真心爱过你
爱过你. . .

I want to be happy

2006-10-22T02:27:00.000+08:00

Just came home from NTU Alumni Club, what a nice place. Was there for Appreciation Dinner. Played pool, watched live band, Chit Chatted, had Dinner and sang K. There was mahjong as well. *Haha* Didnt even want to leave when most of the people had left. Yup, still holding on to the mike! Even when the staff came to join us to sing!Really enjoyed myself today. I must say it was quite a success, but there are some pointers to look out for too.

Been thinking too much again. So much so that it is distracting me always. Couldnt even concentrate on my studies and i am way behind time again. Reminiscing, dont my mind get bored of it? Flashbacks and more flashbacks...Just when I am much happier with the things are now, I am frequently getting nightmares and weird dreams. Some of them were so bad that i woke up in the middle of the night in fear and brokeout in coldsweat. What's wrong? Luckily i couldnt remember any of the nightmares. Probably i didnt sleep well, realised that i tend to have dreams if I had any disrupted sleep. Cant stand my brother... nvm.

For 3 consecutive days, i could say productivity was near zero. Didnt really studied. Please concentrate! Stop idling, those silly thoughts will never come true!

here is a pic taken from the suspended bridge between the 2 main building.

Study, exams, study exams, study, exams . . . . . .

2006-10-16T00:54:00.000+08:00

Seriously dont know what i should blog for now, but i thought of blogging since, i might not have the time in the following weeks to come.

I couldnt remember anything that happened for the past few days, busy mugging...

*blank* *blank* *blank*

Basically, mug mug mug.... So thats why i couldnt think of anything!

Friday was mug till couldnt mug, went to Mt Faber to meet my Bro and his friend. Enjoy the breeze. Hope he and Sao Sao patch up liao. *Haha* Always tell me Lao Fu Lao Qi, only petty quarrels. Told me about his past as well . . . Left for home about 2.30am. Roughly 2 hrs outside.

Saturday, as usual, mug till i needa break. Went to watch Death Note with KK. Movie starts at 12am. I must say Death Note is a must watch!!! Its really a good movie, good plot and misha is so cute! *Haha* Didnt read the manga though Wanky did offer to lend me the manga. I still reading liang feng loh. Anyway Kira went bonker writing names in the book. Poor innocent ppl, especially his so-called girlfriend. Is there part 2 to it? Hmmm, reached home around 3am.

Sunday, mug and mug again, went to collect my watch at Fossil shop in pacific plaza. Told me it was ready for collection, but it turn out that they made a mistake, it was someone else watch that was tagged to my repair bill. Made me wait there for 20 over mins. . . End up, told me that they will call me again. Some kind of prank? Waste petrol.... Even their 'sorry' wasnt sincered.. Dino Mei Mei, Condemn the shop man.... *LOL* After that, went home for dinner and mug after TV.

So thats it, my weekend with books more than with human. Good night!

PS:ZH, help me buy abalone!!!

Last meeting

2006-10-11T02:39:00.000+08:00

Just reached home from school. Woohoo! The 1st person,(rather animal) that greeted me at 2 plus am was Mr. Poggie! Haha, My 1st time seeing him so active after a leg injury. Seems like he has recovered. Running circles in the cage, jumping into the wheel and starts to run, jumping out of the wheel again. So active! can hear all the rustling of the bedding when he runs.

Felt so good!Everything will be put on hold for now till the next meeting. Going into super hyper mugger mode. There's so much so much for me to catch up!!

Didnt dare to think about my quiz marks, as i did very badly for them. I seriously hope that i will have enough time to revise for my exams.

Thats all for now, dead tired. sleep mode ZzZzZzZz...

Oh dear, I didnt study todaY!

2006-10-09T01:44:00.000+08:00

*LOL* the title says it all. What a crazy day, i was telling myself i got to make use of my Sunday wisely and study. But, oppss...

Earlier in the day was to change bedding and washing up of Mr.Poggie. Then wanted to buy new bedding, but it was out of stock, have to wait till Tues. Went to Ah ma house to get printing paper.(You must be wondering, why ah ma got printing paper?) *Shhh* *Haha* It was about 6 plus when i reached home from Ah ma house.Did some cca stuff.

After dinner, went to meet my Bro to take a stroll in the new shopping mall, Vivocity! Super big, But the design is rather space wasting, thats what i thought. Most of the tenants are not in yet, but there were a lot of curious shoppers already.
Then we went Mt faber after that. Bro drove up, but was hungry and wanted to grab a bite. So we went back down to the nearby kiosk. Bought some food, before he let me drive his car. *LOL* I must admit, i have gone rusty, almost 2 years since i drove. Luckily, there wasnt any accident. *CHOY* It was all near accident, halfway up Mt faber, we decided it was better to switch over.*LOL* Too use to riding, i keep drivng as though as i am riding.*Haha* After that, stopped over somewhere where there is a good view looking over to PSA. Chatted for quite sometime, before we got bo liao and took photos.(Like gays like that) *Haha* Cars drove past and saw us, but we didnt really bother. There was a strange tree that looks like a giant pointing towards Suntec, too bad, my camera phone sucks, pictures sucks as well. After that Bro got to pick Sao Sao up, So he drove me back to my bike. And we went seperated ways. Wanted to check out how Alwin was, so i called him. He told me he was supposed to go down to Geylang Serai, but he didnt mention Serai and i ended up in Geylang. *LOL* Called him to meet up in Geylang instead. Got a drink and chatted a while, before we left. Yup, that is basically my Sunday! I didnt study! Oh dear, have i given up?

Some lame photos

At Vivocity, nice interior.

My Bro and I

Ah!!! So bright!

HHmmmm....

EEEEEEE!!!

Quite lame, but was rather happy today, Happy days are short-lived. Going to bed now for sch tmr. *Gulps* Quiz tmr. All the best?

Its been a week again

2006-10-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

Time and tide waits for no man, Oh dear, i didnt even realised that it was a week again. I could hear the clock in the living room ticking away loudly. Time passes real fast when you dont notice it.

Getting lazy to blog, who is going to see my blog after all? *Haha* Nvm, in case i might read back when i am bored. Nothing much to mention about this week, probably its because i have already long forgotten them. Whats more, some things are just routine and i dont see the need to blog it.

Been riding to school now since i have my own ride, just that there is always trouble looking for parking lots. School is so-so this week, just that Chem quiz was a killer on Tuesday. I think i will flung that. Programing quiz on Monday,Opps.

Enough of school! Everyday school, getting sick of it. There are so many things that i want to learn but i had no time for it. Adobe PS, Flash, Premiere pro, php ... the list goes on. No time no time, where got time? *sharkz* *Billions of bistering blue barnacles!**LOL* Sounds familar to anyone?

Cant keep my attention on edventure, looking through digital cameras. Saw something that i like. Sony DSC-W70/S. *WOW* No money for high-end DSLR, so will make do with this, who can be so nice to buy for me? *LOL* Dont think anyone is so generous, i rather go look for students to give tuition during Decemeber.

My birthday watch is spoilt again, the time is always slowing down? why? Even after i changed the battery. The next time will be my third time going down to town to get it fixed. So troublesome.

Anyway, Thank you WK for lending me your tutorials, it sure did help me, finally catching up close to lectures and tutorials. Close but not close enough.

Recently, some weird thing occured, some signs sent from above? If so, what is the message? I dont seems to understand at all. I guess all is fated. I sent you an sms, but another person called me and told me that i sent the msg to the wrong person. That is really weird, i checked the no. and there was no mistake at all. Didnt want to disturb anymore, so i guess i wont sms you anymore in the future.Then came a call this evening. Saw the caller-id and i mistook that it was you. It was only when i picked up, i realised that it wasnt you. There is one number different in the hp no. *Sigh* Some kind of prank or what?

Only after the Energy concert, been listening to one of their songs repeatedly. Kinda stuck in my head. Here is the lyrics.

时间
一分一秒被偷走
所谓的永久
被曾经取代后
变成恶魔
手里握着多余的温柔
独自反复思索
收藏保留
随风飞走
说来轻松

自由
是否会比较好过
原来没有
成全的背后总有
痛苦在招手
记忆停留在最初时候
星光已不再闪烁
无话可说
继续走
还是朋友

让你走
我的爱失控
藏在幸福快乐的背后
是我
逃避退缩
放开手
对爱不再有奢求
是非对错不想再多说
眼神交会时候
出卖承诺
泪在留

想通
躲在黑暗的出口
难以捉摸
是缘份的作用
导致失控
还是孤独一时的冲动
抹去爱情轮廓
故事内容
谁补充
安静的尘封

世界的旋律因你而转动
就算再失控
落空
音符交织感动
就够

让你走
我不再是我
感受不到心跳的触碰
占有
转眼成空
放开手
对爱不再有奢求
徘徊梦中模糊脸孔
遗留在角落
不再轻易地经过

爱失控 by Energy
Elaine, shall we go KTV soon? *Haha* Since you like to sing so much. Hmmm, nothing much to say anymore. Hope to remain happy for the time being.

Overloaded

2006-09-30T15:51:00.000+08:00

Finally updating my blog here, its a week since my last post. I have so many things to say as well, but i have forgotten what i want to say.Let me update and see if i remember along the way.

Sunday, cant remember in details. Went out to buy present for Alwin on the behalf of Cat. After that, i think i went to Sim Lim to buy some computer stuff. Was it a Sunday went i saw Fuhang buying a printer? accompanied him for a while before we went off. Had my dinner at home, before i attended edventure again. Basically that was Sunday.

Monday, Unoffical MIT meeting, noon for Media, evening for IT. In between, HW project. Basically, was in school the whole day. At night around, 2am, met Pat along the road just to pass him the room key as he needed it the next day. Chatted with him for a while before going off.

Tuesday, another school day for me. Had to be in school by 1pm to clean the cac room. After that was preparation for Energy Campus Concert. Media was alerted, mediacorp and ST came to campus. More info can check out
stompcast . The queue was very long, about 700 plus plus ppl present. But heard that some ppl were not happy that the whole LT was not filled up. Its recess period, cant expect that much, whats more what is recess week when we have so much studies to do? *LOL* Did the SOP in the concert, following that learnt quite a few tips from a staff from CED. Thank you so much uncle! Then was the phototaking before we had the next meeting. Somme details better not to mention at all, since i was not involved as well.

There was also Alwin's birthday celebration.*Haha* Glad we still manage to celebrate with him since Cat is in Australia. Having a mental block, cant remember things already.

Wednesday evening met WK to borrow his tutorial, before i went over to NUH for patient visiting.

Thursday went to collect my ride! *Yeah* Finally i got my own bike now.

Friday, got my first parking fine! Didnt expect that, because i was only away for a few minutes from the carpark at my house to take some tools to touch up on the bike. My brother from the window saw the warden coming, quickly call me over to see. ~!@#$%^&*, that stupid warden should know that i already purchased the next month season parking, still summon me and ran away quickly after that. Going to appeal for sure!
At night, met Wanky a while before i went to meet KK to watch Rob-B-hood.

Saturday afternoon, trying to study for upcoming quizzes.....

*Sigh*, you promised me that you will try not to neglect me, you broke your promise again. . .

Welcoming the recess week

2006-09-23T15:06:00.000+08:00

So much has happened in just 3 days! Where do i begin? I cant even remember what went on around me.

Thursday, had mit meeting, some were mia. Didnt have my dinner before meeting because i was rushing. It was only until 10 plus when i got to eat. When i reached home, everyone was asleep. 11pm, pitch dark at home. Replied emails before i hit the sack.

Friday morning, physics quizz, i didnt even prepare for it. *sharkz* out of 7 questions, i am only confident of 3. Thought it was mcq, but the probablity was 20% for each questions as there were 5 choices per question. After that, HW project. Quite screwed up as well, low recieption in some corner of the sch, we couldnt access edventure until a later part. Seems like we have to meet again during the recess week. Thereafter, went to give tuition in the afternoon before i went to manage my cca matters. Told the mum that i wont be teaching any more, it would be my last session. Highlighted to her in the previous lesson before. She tried persuading me to teach on until the final year examinations. Didnt know that the mum was very satisfied with me, the tutor. *LOL* But sorry, due to many factors, i am unable to teach for the meantime. Will continue tuition after exams i guess.(*Sigh* no more income) Promised her that i will personally speak to the new tutor if neccessary.

At night, tried to catch up a bit on my lectures with edventure, before i got all stressed up about the quizz. So sad, i need to buck up! Edventure lecture was over quickly without realising. I need a break, so i ask KS to catch a movie. Didnt expect that he will agree so quickly. Wasnt even expecting him to agree, since he is more busy with his gf. *LOL* Watched the banquet using UOB voucher, while KS used safra card. The show was so-so, nice development of the storyline, but a bit too draggy.

Looking at my task manager, i still have so many things undone. Going to leave house now to buy some stuff and repair my watch. Gee.. losing out on time with my friends.Well, here are some photos of Retro night.

Me, Pat, Chris, Norti and her gals.

Addition Kevin.

Cammieman for the day.

The new family.

out now, bye bye!

So much to say

2006-09-21T00:24:00.000+08:00

Woah woah...I have some many things in my mind that i want to say, better blog it in point form.

Monday, saw my bike bro, Kevin on the bus,*haha* so funny, since we are bike bro, why were we in the bus? His camp was so near to NTU, and was on his way home while i was on my way to sch. Quite surprised when i saw him. Chatted for a few minutes before i alighted.

Then it was lessons as usual, walking around in school with a swollen foot was so tiring. Luckily Tom was around to carry my bag. Nothing much in school, Tom left earlier, while i stayed all the way for lecuture to end. On my way to the bus stop, I saw Cheng Hong. Another NCC fairsian? Talked a while too before we both head off in different directions.

Tuesday was CAC night. Didnt have time to prepare the attire for it. The theme was retro. Went home quick to get the cammie back to do recording. Everything went on smoothly during the event and we managed to decorate the function hall in time as well. Cool! Good buffet dinner as well, just that the audiences left too abruptly after that.(oppss, isnt it obvious?) Poor me, had to do the recording with a swollen foot. OucH! But it was a job well done, really enjoyed it, after all, it our 1st major event! Oh, i was called Emoboy because of my msn nick. thats like.. dotz. Emoboy? heh?.. Around 11 plus yy asked me for supper, didnt want to initially, cause i was so so so tired! Well, thought that since not going to sch on Wednesday, i agreed. Went home to take an extra helmet and put down the cammie. We had supper at lavender, before going over to marina south for arcade. Not my idea, cause i was so tired. But yy wanted to play, so ... After that, went home and zzz.

Wednesday, finally, i went to see a doctor. Damn, polyclinic are always a long wait. Spent 1.75 hrs waiting and i always hated to wait, very bored as well. Oh, the doctor said, to be safe, we did better get an x-ray. It may be broken bone. (gulps!!!) Serious?? I was like self-consoling in front of the doctor, telling him, but its just a drop from the bike, cant be that serious right? Still told me to get the x-ray done. Okay, i am worried as well, so why not? X-ray's report will be out tmr. Have to wait for them to call.

Idle at home the whole day, did some MIT stuff thought. Just that i was feeling legtharic from yesterday's retro night. Photos next time. Blogger is too slow. Nightz.

No mood no mood no mood no mood no mood no mood

2006-09-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

No mood no mood no mood no mood no mood, cant even do my tutorials. Why Why ? am i thinking too much again? Sigh, So down...... Foot swollen because i fell down from the bike again..........(The Aaron's Curse??) Bruised both legs, 3 big patches of blue-black, with the sole being the most swollen and painful. Limping a bit when i walk, luckily, its only bruises and not open wounds or cut.

So bored! Idling here and there.............................why? Lost.............

Jasmine just sent me this pic where we took at Marina South

Talked to Elaine on msn for the past 2 days, *hahaha* so funny, always bullying her. I think i am really mean.For now, I am still lost as ever. Tutorial stuck, Lectures still have yet to catch up.*sigh*

我已开始练习开始慢慢着急着急这世界没有你已经和眼泪说好不哭泣但倒数计时的爱该怎么继续

我天天练习天天都会熟悉在没有你的城市里试着删除每个两人世界里那些曾经共同拥有的一切美好和回忆

Did anyone know how i felt?

2006-09-16T18:15:00.000+08:00

**** **** **** **** **** .... Cursing and swearing doesnt help.. But there is no other avenue of relieving anger..Had to take photos with a swollen foot. Ya Ya.. Whatever, Cant even say anything here, its like, now my blog is no longer my blog. Only some will understand why.

Whatever, i am pissed enough.

Shagged

2006-09-16T02:19:00.000+08:00

Why do meetings always end so late? I am so so so so damn tired. And i am so so so stupid to start the encoding which needs another 20 minutes to finish.. I should have left it for tmr. Ah. Might as well blog for now.

So tired, and tmr we have to wake up early for photo shoot. Cool lah, 1st time wearing a blazer i think.. hmmm.. yah.. should be .. dont remember wearing any in the past. Hope i wont over sleep again. Infected with the sleepers diseases, or probably i am really having sleep deprivative. Cant wait for my ride!! Faster faster faster!

Okay, nothing to say now, hope i can really rest for maybe 2 days during the recess week. Recess week still got meeting, **BBBBEEEEPPPPPPP****. But Energy will be down during the recess week. Seen so many stars this sem that i really see stars in my work as well. 7 more minutes to go.. Come on.. hurry. i want to SLEEP!

My Ride

2006-09-15T15:22:00.000+08:00

Super bored, cooked with my brother at home for lunch as it was raining so heavily, both of us were lazy to leave house to buy lunch. Whats more, its so troublesome to carry brolly ard. Felt so good to sleep so long, 10 hrs i think.

E-learning for me today, had a lecture on Electric Field. Then after that, strayed away to look for my ride. After much consideration in terms of budget and fuel friendiness, it has been finalized. This is what i will be getting!

Courtesy of SBF.

250cc bike, at least its a Class 2A bike and i can dig Aaron on it. *LOL* Alwin Class2, I class 2A, Aaron and Andy 2B. *LALALALALALA* The Chan insurance company (My parents) do not cover Super4 bike because of my past accident. If not, i would have chose S4 instead. Look on the bright side, at least this baby maintenance cost is lower than that of S4. Less taxing on my pocket! Ok, got to prepare for tuition. After that is meeting again. Tmr is Photoshoot, Cool!

Why do i feel so bored?

2006-09-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

Super duper bored, i dont understand why, i have tons of tutorials to catch up, but i am like.. Whatever. AH... Dont know why. Thursday's meeting has been postpond to Friday. WELL.... *Haha*

Overslept today, my body is getting weaker i think, i get tired so easily, that's bad, hope i will be able to last till recess. Then will rest 1 or 2 days before i mug again. Did the videoing of LWS workshop. Ok, was very brief intro of composing and singing songs. After that, went home to take a futile nap, because i couldnt even rest properly. Mug in the night till now.

Dying of boredom!! Think i will just listen to one lecture before i go to bed. Night.

Its Monday again

2006-09-11T01:05:00.000+08:00

Life is like a cycle, they always tell us cycle life and not let life cycle you. But i dont seems to have a choice now. *Haha* In this case, might as well enjoy my student life. Super long day for me tmr. cause of RDC. Tuesday another long day because of HAS briefing. Wednesday investiture for me. Thursday Lee Wei Song forum and EXCO meeting. ALL LONG DAYS! Super busy week. Friday is the only day for me to relax. Please, dont pop up anything. Shagged out.

Today didnt really do anything. Went to Sim Lim to buy a new router as the old one sucks. Hopefully the new one will work properly. Rode in the rain, being a long time since i rode in the rain. (Of course with raingear on) Then evening was Liping's birthday party. Quite okay lah, can see Dino Mei Mei so happy! *Haha* WK man of the event liaoz. Stole the limelight by doing stupid things, came in the wrong attire, stepped on ppl's shoe, de siao(tease) Liping's sis, spilled water on the floor... (pls add on) *Haha* Thinking back, i realised that i am so old now. No longer the young mama's boy. How i wished i didnt have to deal with adulthood problems, but too bad,i have grown up and have to embraced it. Hope i dont screw things up. Came home and did a little bit of revision, but nothing on computing when there is a quizz tmr. *Haha* Should be able to handle it. Well, some pics taken just now.

KS,Me,WK and HT

Opps, wore sandal, so no socks! Haha, still got the burned mark on my foot.

The birthday girl forced me to hold the ballons...*Haha*

Wah, so busy unpacking present.Bad shot, i present half of Kenneth.

Sigh, been thinking of you again.Well, should i be happy or sad? I see that you have a wonderful life now, i am happy for you as well, but it hurts me to see that you belong to someone else. If i were to say that i am feeling happy, i would be decieving myself. I should have moved on, just that your shadow cast over my life, i could see you everywhere i go... I cant help but to feel for you. I could only keep myself busy everytime, but there are still times where i will look back. Why am i so stubborn?
明知道爱你不会有结果为何还如此执著为你付出所有你竟不顾一切就走明知道爱你只是继续错为何还如此脆弱已经习惯有你已经不能将你摆脱也许当一场梦梦醒一切都随风...
I am still in love with you... thats all that i know. I hope he loves you a lot too.

I need a Study Group!

2006-09-10T02:26:00.000+08:00

Shit, Why i dont understand a single Sh**t about the lectures? Quantum physics is a really killer now. Tried doing the tutorials just now, but i got stucked again, *AAHH* Got stucked with Chemistry as well! What the, (~!@#$%^&*) Everyday my brain can really exploded. Why is there no tuition for Uni students? If there is, i am sure it will be very successful, 1st supporter will be me. Whats more, there might be a entrepruener spirit award!*HAHA* okay, enough of Bulls.. I need to form a study group!

Yesterday was with my camp bro, We had supper at lavander, near his work place. He had to work till so late, pretty tough. After that we went to Esplanade to enjoy the scenery. Talk quite a lot about how time flies and never bored topic of army life when we were in 30th. Sis-in-law was rather tired, so we didnt stay for long as well.

Today, met up with my bro again, *Haha* asked him to accompany me to look for bike. But he was so unlucky, bumped into a car in front of him when he didnt notice. Why are people getting into accidents nowadays? I better not have any!! I had 2 Major ones with injures already. No more please. Thank you. Well, really bought a bike but i had to ask my mum again. Made a call and got rejected, because the bike was too old. Where in the world can i find a cheap and new bike? *Sigh* So, no bike for me today. Come back again next time. Bro was meeting his friends to celebrate his birthday, invited me to go drink with him. Not that i dont respect him, but i have to turn down drinking because i had to study. I am lagging behind already. Anyway, Happy Birthday Bro! And as well as Dino Mei Mei, Happy Birthday as well. Both your Birthday falls on the same day.*Haha*

Now, so tired after finishing the edventure lectures. Wanted to have supper, but well, i am more lazy now and would rather want to sleep.*Haha*

ZH, get your connection back fast and stop drooling on those Aussie babes!

Had a good rest

2006-09-08T14:06:00.000+08:00

Its Friday, weekends are here again. Cool, but having been really going out in the day to enjoy,*Haha* Usually it was no time, now, its NOBODY to accompany me! No plans for Saturday, maybe study at home. Still catching up on my tutorials. Sunday is Dino Mei Mei's Birthday. Oh dear, just recieved an email from VP, Sunday got activity. CLASH! How are? Trying to negotiate.

So nice to be at home resting after a long day yesterday, but will be going out to give tuition in the evening, no plans for Friday night as well. Sadly, no life.*Haha* see how it goes... Had my 1st meeting yesterday, quite smooth-sailing. But there are a lot to achieve for my term of office. Quite Stress, but it will be a good experience? Everyone is telling me that, except my parents, they are still worried about my studies. Balance balance balance, no other better word to describe the stiuation.

I still cant really make up my mind, should i really buy Super4? Very expensive and i dont want my parents to spend so much on me, but i need a transport to school and back. Lesser time will be spend on travel and i can use my time efficiently. Get a 2B bike, then whats the point of getting 2A? But then, 2B bike lower fuel consumption than 2A, but 2A got more power. So, still thinking through. Just bought a laptop for 2269, very taxing on the family income. So must really consider a lot.

Neglected Mr. Poggie recently, see him sleep like a pig. Eat, sleep, shit, drink, eat, sleep, shit, drink.... the cycle never ends for him.*Haha* Caught him out and let him run around for a while. Hmm, so bored, wonder what can i do after tuition. No plans no plans.... Study? But i really feel like winding down a bit since its the weekends.

Here is the new laptop.Behind is my dad's companies laptop.

Mr. Poggie trying to sniff out the bugger disturbing him.

Another pic of Mr.Poggie, getting fatter each day.

Blogger uploading finally works, Dont know if i can post the Van Fan and Tong En pics anot. Better not. Dont want to get screwed.*Haha* Ok, let me get ready for tuition.See ya.

Finally, I have some time to myself

2006-09-06T00:10:00.000+08:00

Woohoo, just came back home from meeting. Ok ok, i have a lot in my mind to blog, just briefly if i can still remember.

Saturday was peer tutoring with WK at Toa Payoh Library. Met him around 11 plus for an early lunch and we offically started to study around 12.10pm. The library was rather crowded, with all the O level students mugging away. WK even said that the environment is too kiddish with so many younger students around us. I think we are the oldest in the teen section(probably we shouldnt even be in the teen section but there were no seats elsewhere).Manage to finish my Chem tutorials, but did not complete my Maths tutorials, which was the one that i intended to finish 1st. Maths quiz is this week and i still have yet to study for it. I am like totally clueless to maths. Feeling stressed over academic issues because i can never seems to catch up. Still coping with it. We left about 3.45pm because WK had something on. Rode home and i practically idle away till dinner time. I didnt want to hit the books again because i was so bored. Then i asked Alwin and Aaron out for supper. Meeting place was KTM railway station. Before that, i met up with Aaron at bbdc before we headed down to the station. Aaron was riding like a tortise! and i had to follow him so slowly, that i could fall asleep while riding the bike. *Haha* He bought a new bike and had to run-in the bike. What's more, he had an minor accident 2 hours after he got a new bike.(yes, AGAIN???) Superficial injuries,nothing serious but he was very upset that his bike had scratches at a milege of 19km only! Alwin reached before us because we were late...(Got tortise mah) We eat quite a lot and chatted for about 3 hours plus. Then after that, i accompanied the tortise home.

Sunday i did quite a few plannings for MIT. Brainstormed ideas here and there. Tried to study a bit, but couldnt get myself started because i was quite tired. Thought that i might better make use of the time better than just sleeping. Then i agreed to go the EXPO with my mum to get a laptop. Laptop not for me, but piority given to me because i am studying in NTU. It was the Commex fair 2006. Super crowded, a lot of pretty girls as model as well.*Haha* One guy even went to ask whether they can take photo anot. Spent my whole evening looking for a laptop, and bought a LG laptop. The fastest CPU currently in the market. 1.83ghz, duo core2 technology. Then reach home late as well, didnt want to study for effective com at all. Just searched online for letter templates that i may need to use for the test. After that, hit the bed.

Monday itself, quite hectic la, just as Tuesday as well. After the test, during the next lesson, computing tutor said its test next week. TEST AFTER TEST. Do they end? (Yah, When they do, its the exams period) Then after that, tution at night, till it was 9pm. Didnt have the time to do my tutorials, just did a bit of physics till 2am.

Tuesday, Lab experiment, group work. So quite simple. Followed by tuorial classes, didnt copy any answer because i want to try to do the tutorial questions. Chem lecture after that, i doze off during lecture. After the Chem lecture, i decided to go home and skipped computing. No time to rest at home as well, replying to emails, thinking of workplans... etc. After dinner is back to school again for meetings. And Finally, tmr is Wednesday. I can rest a day and try my tutorial and revise for my maths quiz.

Getting zzzz, okay. Nothing much to say now. Good Nightz.

So busy so busy so busy

2006-09-04T01:33:00.000+08:00

Busy until i cannot blog. No updates now, maybe tmr. Nitez.

Whatever

2006-09-02T01:23:00.000+08:00

So pissed, dont really know how to start off a blog when i am pissed. Whatever.....

Was giving tuition today till i rushed over to school for campus concert. Yes, i know i am late and its not helping when i have to find the adapter screw for the camcorder and Ben didnt answer my calls. Thanks to president and VP for trying to setup for me, I got the adapter which they were looking for while setting up. Everything went on smoothly during the recording, was msging Ben for help because the tape is not enough to cover the whole concert. Bo Bian, made a swap of tape during the 40th minute at an unimportant part. Concert was good, Taiwan singers have the stamina to sing. So fortunate to have so many singers to sing in campus, all thanks to P.A.

VP(MC) birthday on Monday, celebrated his birthday today and i left after taking all my stuff from the room. Looking for a cab home, but well, such timing and such a place, hard luck. So, i took bus back home, and had my dinner.

I hope i wont get pissed off again, thats all, now i got to rest early. Meeting WK to study tmr. Nightz.

Raining Day

2006-09-01T00:18:00.000+08:00

What a morning, to have heavy rain drops falling through the window. I was still in bed when my brother went to close the windows. Earlier on before it rain, my 2nd brother woke me up to tell me that i am going to be late for school if i continued to sleep. Was so lethargic that i decided to sleep instead of going to school. Besides, i prefer to revise at home than to attend lecture. Not say that i am encouraging people to skip lectures, just that even if i were to attend lectures today, my mind will be half asleep. What good will it do me to absorb half of what will be taught? So i didnt go school today and slept till it was lunch time. These few days of accumulated hours of insufficient rest made me slept for so long. My brother bought me packed lunch and there after i went to upload the 2nd part of the fireworks video.Darn, that piece of sh*t rob me away of about 4-5 hours of my time in the day. Youtube uploads stopped half-way everytime. My file was big as well, so it took very long to upload. Finally its up. Was multi-tasking along the way and tried some tutorials, thanks to WK for his tutorials. Will be meeting him on Saturday for Peer to peer teaching.*LOL* After that was some online lectures clips, and i stayed at home for the whole day. Too nice and cosy at home when most of the day was showered with thunderstorms. Doing some MIT stuff before i end the day now.

Tmr will be the campus concert, i have got to do the videographing all by myself. Hope it will be a good concert like the Li Sheng Jie's one.

Now for the long awaited clip, I present to you part 2 of the fireworks festival. Hope you will enjoy it ZH.

Anyway, i know my blog design sucks,*Haha* but so sorry, i aint got the time to work on it. Maybe after sem 1. Good Night.

Full Swing

2006-08-31T00:35:00.000+08:00

I could feel it coming soon, yes, when my CCA is coming to a burst. Meeting after meetings, and more meetings. Basically, my off days are gone!*Haha* but i dont mind, in exchange that if i do really learn more during this period of time.

Getting more and more hectic, i still have yet to do my tutorials, i am behind classes already.

Darn, video 2 is ready and i dont have the time to put it up as well. okay, just keep it short for today.. Good Night.

Tuesday is here, hurry hurry, i want Wednesday.

2006-08-29T00:38:00.000+08:00

Woohoo, one crazy day down, two more to go for the week, at least i hope so if there aint any screw ups. Finally made up the mind to give up on the math lectures, so i went to buy a text book for it. $44 bucks, no cheap s**t. Darn, speaking of which Effective Comms is an open book exam and i will be at a disadvantage if i dont buy. So much spending on books, books aint cheap and students aint rich okay.*Haha*

Learnt a bit on about the video camera today, when i was briefed by the out-going MIT Director. I must say i still have lots to learn, but dont worry, i am fast when it comes to technical stuff. Generally its a guy's thing, and for me, i am up for it. So the attribute points of MIT for me will raise rather fast for this term in NTU.

Tommorrow will be a long day with meetings, I should get used to it soon. Just a bit more before i end. ZH, the video is good right, as promised, I made the effort to find a good spot to take it. It was really awesome, the fireworks were almost slightly above my head.*Haha* Hope you enjoyed it, bringing you firework fest to your doorsteps in Australia.

Lastly, dont think you will read this yy, wishing you all the best for you exams.Good Night, going to embrace myself for the long Tuesday ahead.

Monday Blues again

2006-08-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

How dreadful can it be when you know the weekend is over? Another week is starting! Lectures, Lab prac, tutorials, school has become a cycle of events that will always takes place. *Sian* That's a life of a student. What can i do about it? live it good.

Anyway i want to thank all those who voted for me, i have got my position. I will do my very best as a Director.(BUT pls dont haunt me for tickets, i will give them if i have spares ones.)September 1st there is one coming up, Fan yi cheng and tong en if i am not wrong.

A bit about yesterday, i went out to catch a movie in the late night, with the usual night owls of GWC. Sadly, left one of them when i reached.*LOL* Was told that the rest left for home before hand, but i just wanted to catch a movie, because i havent been watching one for quite sometime. We watched the Devil wears prada. Quite an interesting story, for those of you who wants action this is not the type of show. What really entices me is because the show is on fashion industry, something which interest me as well but i am not really so into it. Just a minor interest. After that had supper before we hit the roads for home.

As for today, i went to study a bit on my own after lunch till late evening, when my mum bought subway home as a snack before actually dinner starts. What a coincidence. yy's bf bought her a subway to eat too. Why? Anyway, I had my share and had a dinner at a later time, before i driftted away on my studies and search for bikes that are for sale. Having the intention to buy a new bike.

Oh ya, After so many attempts to upload my video on youtube, it finally succeeded. I was cursing here and there with the uploader.Here it goes, proudly presents, for special guest ZH.

Enjoy!

Tried to post pictures,but my blogger always fails, i dont know why, perhaps i got to source for an alternative host for pictures.

Gtg now, good night.

Who am I?

2006-08-26T13:17:00.000+08:00

Think i am hit with an identity crisis myself, not in terms of my acadamic goals, because i have long planned what i want to do. What is it called? Pardon me but i am not good with words. To me, i guessed its so called my social being. Yes, i know i am lousy in my social skills as well, neither am i good in talking. My dear friend always said that i am always talking rubbish. In the past, you didnt like me to be that super quiet because it was boring, now that i started to talk, you said that i am always talking rubbish. It is your expectation of me or is it i really make no sense to you? Quite hurting, but it doesnt matter, i am not offended because i know that i am still trying. There is a limit though, as the saying goes, 'you cant please the whole world'. There are bound to have people to dislike you. Not that i am demanding attention from people, but if i am solely thinking that i dont need people to comment on me, i wont be able to grow because i limit my social boundaries. There is a certain balance in it, perhaps, the number of people who likes you has to be greater or equal to the number of people who dislike you?

Sometimes i really dont know what i want to do about social relation between people. Do i want to improve it or do i just want to let it cease? Do i expect a lot from people or do people expect a lot from me? If so, am i doing it up to their expectation? This is rather pathetic, 21 years of age and yet i cant distingush between different expectation of people. Yes, i am trying still. After the second lesson of effective communication, i learnt about self-perception and self-esteem, which are used to find out our self-concept. I find myself still quite the normal happy-go-lucky person and often is the relationship between people puts me down. So there is problem identified. Social interaction. Its only a pinch full numbers of people who are always putting me down. Yes, because in the past i have did something wrong to them, i tried to improve, now i could only say let nature takes it course. If you are worried that i may sound very negative, dont worry, i am fine, seriously, i just want to evaluate on myself, my self-esteem is still, somewhere there. *Haha* Just that i want to improve on those relationship that i still think there's hope of reviving it.

My friends here, mainly would be ZH and LP liaoz,(since they always read my blogs) can you tell me what kind of person am i? This is more like a self-reflection for me, so that i could improve on myself. It would be of great help if you could comment. I would be able to communicate better with my comittee members as well.

Just an update, went to meet my camp Bro and sis-in-law yesterday at LPS. Driving car liao.*Haha* He felt a bit our of place because his other friends rode bike while he drives. Nothing wrong with giving sis a more comfortable seats when travelling. There after was Samuel's birthday, (someone whom i dont even know, a friend's friend) Wishing him a happy birthday before i hit the roads and went home.

Dead Tired

2006-08-25T13:36:00.000+08:00

So uncomfortable, not enough rest for the past two days, got a woke up call in the morning, now having a headache. The mention MC will scare me now.*Haha* At least the issue is settled.Good Luck.

Finally its the weekend again, but i still have quite a number of tutorials to do. Sianz, Anyway polls is over and i am ready to take up my position.

Going to give tuition in the late afternoon. Now its going down my house for Brunch. See ya.

I dont know whether did i do the right thing

2006-08-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

You asked me to help you and yet you MIA? The least thing you could do is to answer my calls because i dont know how you want it to be done. Am i helping the right person a not? Why you seems not at all concerned about yourself? I dont know what are you thinking! This thing is not urgent to you? Dont seems like it to me, cause you said you dont wish to be barred. But you dont seems to be bothered like that. Like contradicting yourself. What am i suppose to do to help you now?*Clueless* Unless its not an urgent matter that i can take my own sweet time, i wont bother till you call me instead then. But its such an important thing, and you still can take it in your stride. Is this really you? I hope not.

Seems like you are very happy with yourself now, dont know whether was it right of me to surprise you either. *Sigh* Felt so terrible.

Polls tomorrow, got to stay around and ask for vote. Yes, I can do it.Good night.

Crazy Tuesday for a better Wednesday

2006-08-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

WOOO~! Cant believe it, finally a break in my weekly schedules. What a way to start of my Tuesday, with the moment of inertia as my lab experiment. I realised that in blogs, i dont really have the freedom of speech. Because i want to make personal comments on people, but i will offend them one way or another. Anyway, lab experiment was a total..... clueless and left on our own? Didnt know how to do and called Andy for help and he came to find me but he couldnt help~! Because he has forgotten all the YR1 Stuff and he is in EEE. The experiment is on MAE.*Haha* Had my Da Bao lunch and tried to do my report. Ended up rushing my lab report in the tutorial classes because i have to leave school for tuition. Finally, after a lot of 'smoking' here and there, i managed to complete my report.Passed it to Guang Wang to help me hand it up. Knew Guang Wang through KS, as we all are from the same NSF camp as well.

After that, ran out and tried to take the bus out of campus. Packed at 2 plus pm? i couldnt believed it, luckily another one came at the back. Boarded it just to take me out to take a cab.And, why is it that when you want a cab, it either doesnt come, or its all hired and busy and worse still, all the empty cabs are at the other side of the road. WT..... Ended up crossing the raod to hail a cab. Got into one finally, and in such rushing time, why did i end up with a slow driver? Worse still, i gave the wrong directions. Now this is what i call shit flows down you. Everything just snowballed. Was 15 minutes late, and i recieve a call from my student, asking me what time is the tuition today? Told him sorry that i am late.

After tuition, i went back home to rest immediately, i could feel myself so exhausted, that i was so uncomfortable and giddy. Lied down for about 30 minutes before i got a sms from the current Director to ask whether if i can turn up earlier. Woah, Shoo, there i go and meet up with Ben after a fast dinner at home, just one scoop of rice and a little bit of veg and 2 fish balls. I couldnt eat much because i really feel nausea through out the day. Its the MIT com meeting. Get to know many people today, yes i believe that they are good and skilled bunch of guys. Introduced myself as well. A Good briefing from the current director, summed up the work done last year. Learnt a lot as well. After that i debrief 1-1 by the director himself, before i went home at around 10.15pm.

Really tiring Tuesday, the over effects of Monday still hung on it.Dead tired but cant really sleep.*Shit*. I will try. Nightz.

Rally is over, next comes the poll

2006-08-22T00:22:00.000+08:00

What a Monday, Monday are always so hectic, well cant really blame anyone because i planned the time-table myself.

Rally just over, made a speech in front of about 50 people? i dont know, just a rough estimation. A big THANK YOU to Weizhi, Weekwok and Kenneth for their attendance. No comments on the rally, cannot say much also. Just that this is the first time i am doing such a major thing, an election participant.

Polls on Thursday, vote for me ok? Let me make myself and the club better than before. Nightz

Cant fall asleep

2006-08-21T00:46:00.000+08:00

No i cant sleep without you, i cant sleep without... *haha* its suppose to be cant smile without you. Ah.. Crap.. I dont know why i just couldnt fall asleep. I was on my bed at 12am, toss and turned till it was about 12.45am and i gave up sleeping.Perhaps i got influenced by someone who always cannot sleep as well.*haha* Maybe? So this is what they call, sharing your problems, hope you would be able to sleep after i shared your problem of sleeping.*haha* or maybe i am worried about tomorrow's speech? Cant sleep, so came here to blog.*Sigh* Its going to be a long day for me tomorrow and Tuesday as well. Cant wait for Tuesday to end, then i would be able to enjoy my Wednesday. Wait till i got my post, i may not even have free days anymore.

Did nothing much today, a lot of notes printing at home, until my whole table is filled with notes. Print a lot one shot, so that i wont have to print again in due time. Went out with my Mum in the afternoon after her work. We went to Centre Point and John Little. Its been a long time since i went shopping with my Mum. In the past, i always hate it when my Mum brought me out to shop with her, because she would only shop under the ladies department and i as a kid, always end up in the children section. That is possible if and only if the shopping centre has Children section. If not, especially places where they have whole row of boutiques, i will do the disappearing act as a sign of protest.*Haha* made her so worried that she stopped shopping and look for me instead. So selfish right? Actually i dont think so, because i will only disappear like after sometime, maybe around 1-2hours later. So its considered sufficient time to shop.Well, my Mum is a SHE. *Haha* Woman can never stop shopping. Those are the past, now its slightly different, my Mum always say that she is old and spend lesser time on dolling herself, so she shops very little for herself now, most of the time, she would spend money on us(my brothers and my Dad)instead. After shopping, there was the OCBC road show just outside John little specialist. Giving away ice ball(similar to ice-kachang), as long as you show them a credit card of any bank. *Haha*, my Mum and i shared one of it. Quite big, and we couldnt finish, threw away the rest and we went home as my Mum has to prepare dinner for the hungry rats. Thats what she always call the 3 son of hers because in the night, we would get hungry and look for food in the kitchen. All her dried rations would be eaten up by us.*Haha*

So that is basically it for today, chat on msn just now before i hit the bed and yet i am up again. Tomrrow would be a very long day, hope i wont be tired and can last till the end of Tuesday. Ok, nothing much to say now, maybe chat a while longer before i try to sleep again. Good Night.

I hate those sad negative thoughts

2006-08-20T01:54:00.000+08:00

Just backed home from touring(bike term). Haiz, Why such sad memories have to come back again? Why am i feeling so hurt once more?

Initially i wanted to ask people out on a Saturday night because i knew i am thinking too much again, i dont want to think of things which will hurt me again, But nobody is free. I ended up leaving house slightly before 10pm, Went to have a stroll alone. Wanted to see whats in the movies lately, so i rode to PS. No good show recently and i have not been watching movies frequently like i used to. Cant find movies khakis.Went to the arcade, wasted one buck on the UFO catcher, the machine that lets you fish for the doll.

Felt real bad, its not helping at all, maybe i shouldnt even have left house.*Sigh* Called up Elaine and talk to her on the phone. Hope i didnt scare you... After that went to Cineleisure and see if my friends are there. Nope, they arent around.Then i left and went to Esplanade. Parked illegally, hope i wont get any summon letter, as there were police officers around when i left. I Walked from the bridge to the DXO area where there was a live band going on. Sang along, 'i'm not crazy... i'm a little unwell, i know right now you cant tell, but stay a while and soon you'll see, a different side of me...'Cant really remember the lyrics, Unwell, by matchbox 20. After that, i walked all the way back to the bridge and across the bridge to the merlion.*Haha* Got nothing to do and i took a picture of the merlion whom never stops puking. Took the Fulerton hotel as well and my own shadow. Then after that, walked back and rode off to Marina South. Nope, the usual Souther were not around.So, i went back home...

Anyway just hope i would get any summons, because it will cost me $70 for illegal parking!

Only 1 Pic, dont know why, blogger cannot upload more than one pic per post is it?

Merlion.

Saturday afternoon

2006-08-19T15:42:00.000+08:00

Haiz, thinking too much again, its not a bad thing to think right? just that i hope it wont cause me to be too upset. I am fine, really, just reminiscing the past, espcially after the li sheng jie concert, his songs are really nice and meaningful. Already singing to his songs, maybe really should get his album. He really live up to the title of 痴心歌王.

Chorus of 2 of his new songs.

你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

眼底星空
流星开始坠落
每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走
转过身跌入黑洞
看着天长地久变两种漂泊
男人流泪比流血加倍心痛
眼底星空
流星跌落手中
我静静握着抬头向上天祈求
愿你先找到温柔
有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
谢谢你陪我陪爱听雨吹风

1st verse of another song,

Oh...you are so beautiful to me, me, me.
在我眼里你永远最美
连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
你所谓的幸福我想给
以为手不放开就是痴心绝对
太愚昧难道
笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心死了彼此不信任了
终於懂了真的

Sigh, too bad, its all a part of memory now, its just like i have moved on and now its only fliping through the photo albums in my mind, why didnt i cherish the moment more? Even if i regret it now, its meaningless. If only i had a 2nd chance, but all i could only say,'谢谢他给你给爱另一个星空'

我真的很想你, 你会知道我在想你吗? 我一直都在想念你, 如果这世界能有'如果'的话, 如果我能知道'如果'会发生什么事, 我希望有第二次机会,能够从来.

chorus of 味道 by 张学友
想念你的笑
想念你的外套
想念你白色袜子
和你身上的味道
我想念你的吻
和手指淡淡烟草味道
记忆中曾被爱的味道

Oh, you are really so beautiful to me, do you know?

A stay home Friday night

2006-08-19T02:25:00.000+08:00

Unbelievable, usually i would be out, but i am at home, cant find anyone to go out with. The GWC ppl also not free. So i could only rot at home. Quite pissed though, initially was invited to see filming, end up say such things, as though as we are some outcast, then in the first place dont invite la. Very funny is it, invite already then say such things.

Now for some blogging, today was my off day and sadly, i forgot to make plans! Didnt want to join Exco anymore, and i told the running president that i have decided to withdraw.*Haha* He persuaded me to join and take it as a challenge to cope with studies and having a CCA. Took up the challenge and spend the noon to prepare my nomination form.Oh ya, running for the portfolio of Media/IT director. Monday is my rally speech, what am i going to say? I still have to prepare a speech and pull votes from students. I really cannot believe that i am doing such a thing, because i am not a speaker's person, who knows i will get stage fright and faint on rally itself?*Haha* Better not, anyway my brother encouraged me to join as well. I have to be confident!

Afternoon was giving tuition, and exams are coming for my student. Oh dear, and his studies are still so poor, seems like this tutor is useless or are my assignments really that difficult to do? Lets hope that you will do well for your exams boy. Was tutoring half-way when a sms came from Lawson, 'Eh, got ticket, you want to come?' It was the Wilbert Pan Wei Bo concert. Replied with a,'dont think so, too late.' because tutoring ends at 6pm while admission starts at 6.30pm. How to rush from bukit panjang to NTU. After that, i think its quite a waste if i dont go, and i msged Lawson if the ticket is still available, i will join them late. Reach home and got my bike from my brother and sped all the way to NTU, was travelling at 110km/hr.
Wilbert was sick and couldnt sing well, so the concert ended early compared to Li Sheng Jie's one. But quite happening, Lawson got sabotaged and went on stage to play games with Wilbert,*Haha* Oh ya, Dino Mei Mei came in late and got a back seat. Poor thing. After the concert, went home to have my dinner before i started asking ppl out. All not free, wtf, stupid friday night. Thats the end? Went to do programing instead. Weird, i typed everything correctly but the program doesnt run the way it was suppose to be. Gave up in the end and started to blog instead. So pissed, bring a stomach of 'qi' to sleep now. Nightz

So tired

2006-08-17T21:21:00.000+08:00

Wohoo, almost weekend now, yup, why do i say that? because i dont have to go school tmr,*Haha* another unofficial off day for me, but i have to PON 2 lectures a week in total. But i am so tired to do anything when i reached home.

School was okay today, as usual, dont think i learnt anything today. After school was waiting for interview to join CAC Exco. Interview was okay, just that i still think i wont be able to pick up the courage to do a rally. Not a speaker's person. Monday is the rally, would i be able to take it? Feel like withdrawing, but somehow still holding on.

Went to see the doctor again, still coughing after i completed my medication, what a long long illness, when can i stop coughing? And why is it that the doctor charge me $20 dollars this time? So weird, last week was $2 dollars only. After that took bus home. Surprisingly, when i alighted the bus, Shujun alighted as well. We didnt see each other in the bus at all.*Haha* So funny, it was only after we alighted and walking back, i realised that she was walking beside me!!! So, i just looked at her for a while, till she felt that someone was looking at her.*Haha* She was surprised to see me too. We walked and chatted a bit till we reached the traffic junction where we splited.

Reached home all tired, still finding a video editor to edit my firework videos! Shit man.Oh, forgot to talk about Li Sheng Jie's concert, it was awesome man. Really powerful singer, songs are good as well. Tried to take video secretly but was caught. TOO BAD. *Haha* A pity someone couldnt watched it because overslept.*Haha* Next one would be Pan Wei Bo, but i got no tickets to watch it. Sad, no one got spare tickets anymore!

Aaron's bike, before repair.

Dont know why, even uploading also can get error message, fed up of uploading anymore.Got to go take a rest now.. Bye bye

Wednesday Chill

2006-08-16T14:48:00.000+08:00

Ah, how i love Wednesday, one of my unofficial off days. Cool, finally my computer seems to be working well after reformating 4 times~! Crashed after every installation in the past, till i figured out that my partioning of my HDD might be wrong. Just a wild guess and presto~ My computer is back alive again! Hope its the right problem that i had rectified. If not, i am going to smash my HDD up into pieces man. So fed up fixing it for the past 3-4 days. And on top of that, i already had a hectic schedules in school. A BIG THANK YOU to ZH for putting the new tag board for me. (Hey, my old one is working already, just that they updated their site and wanted their memebers to log in to update, that explains why the tag board was spoilt, Well since you had posted this new tag board, stick with this loh.*Haha)

Week 2 in school was a major set back for me. Tutorials started since Monday and i am so stressed that i cant manage with my tutorials and i dont really understand the tutor's answers. All the foreigners in the class are like so much smarter than me, its like (WTF?) Desperately need help from people, if not i can really quit school after one semester man. The future looks gloomy now, with all the question marks up above my head. Pray that Andy can help me out in school. I still wanted to add an elective on top of my current time table.*Haha* but i still believe that i can cope with the electives now rather than die terribly in year 2 onwards. Whats more i am still giving tuition.*Haha* seems like the tuition teacher here is having trouble with his own studies as well. Sometimes i really regret that why didnt i choose to do a degree in business instead? At least business has much more lesser working steps and calculation and more of memorising, unlike engineering. Whats more business course is only 3 years! (And there are so many pretty girls in business!*LOL* some extra thoughts) If i fail in year 1 engine, i will take business course and join the next year intake.

Studies aside, i mentioned about joining a cca in school, but the salsa en sync is full and doesnt want any more members. So no more dancing for me, *Haha* DO I REALLY want to join Exco? The only thing i fear most is the rally. How am i suppose to do a speech in front of NTU students? The biggest crowd i ever spoke to is only about 40 people during secondary school days. See how it goes for now.

Going back to school later for the Li Sheng Jie campus concert.*Yeah* another live music session.Meanwhile i am still trying to install back all the wu ae bo ae (crap) programs back into my computer. Anyone has any ideas what is the best program to resize video clips? i still have yet to post my fireworks clips.

Thought this few days was busy, but i am still quite happy with it. Some patching up has been done, my dad wants to buy me a laptop, my mum is sponsering money for me to buy a bike and my brother is helping out with my studies as well. Felt like a star at home.*Haha* All the attention is on me at home after i entered Uni. But i rejected my parents guesture of goodwill because i dont see the need to get a laptop and getting a bike now would only meant more expenses, the family has to fork out a lot suddenly and on top of that, i may need some money to buy books or print notes. So, no laptop or bike for me now. If my family is loaded, then i wont mind,*haha* then i wont have to fight to use the computer and dont have to join the 'sardines' in bus 179 and 199. Okay, going to try some tutorial again while installing programs back. So not blogging anymore, maybe later.

Its Leftie's Day

2006-08-13T19:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Left Hander's Day to all left-handed, that includes me as well. 13th of August is International Left Hander's Day.*Haha* Special mention to Zhi Hao, Jie Ying and Catherine. Did i miss out anyone that i know is left-handed? Well, sadly in Singapore its not recognised so no holiday for us. In other countries its declared as a holiday. Meanwhile still setting up my computer after yesterday's formatting. No time to blog now. Later!

Another Beautiful Night

2006-08-13T01:29:00.000+08:00

Woah, just reached home and i cant recall anything today, Gee, wait, let me try to think back bit by bit.

Morning was sending my brother to the jetty so that he could go fishing,(a big fat catch today). It was like 8 am when he woke me up. The journey to and fro took about 1hr plus. Bought breakfast for Mum and 2nd bro, then after breakfast, i just went back to bed, slept until Chang Han called me to find Alwin. *Haha* Another rider on the road from Monday onwards. Welcome to the club. There after was lunch, my granny came to my house and bought us food for lunch as well. Granny still so fit, came here to feed her little grandsons.*LOL* Thankz Granny. Then after that, went to format my computer, dont know what my brother do to it, it always have the stupid NUS log in pop-up appearing all the time. Especially when i double click on the WC3 icon. It took me the whole afternoon just to re-install back XP. Had some errors here and there, thats why its not even ready to use, all the software have yet to be installed. Packed my room for a quite sometime as well, ended up forgetting to print my lab reports.Got to do it tmr. I remembered that there is fireworks tonight as well, but then i thought it will be too last minute to ask anybody out again.(Shit!)

After dinner, just went out alone again to watch the fireworks, this time round the TP controlled the traffic and i missed my sweet spot to flim the fireworks~! I detoured round till somewhere near suntec i gave up and just stopped somewhere and ran up to the bridge as it was nearing 9pm. The very 1st shot of fireworks was green in colour and i was still trying to take my camera out, so missed quite a bit. And the spot wasnt as good as yesterday's. Uncle Sammies had alot of trouble handling the traffic when the fireworks went up. All the cars just stopped on the highway, and Uncle sammies just copied down the car plates. Halfway fliming and i saw my hp. There was a sms from Aaron. He told me he got knocked down by a bus.(What?? not again? This is like the how many times you got into an accident?) And as usually, its just a minor accident with no injures at all. I am not that lucky as him, always sustained injures. So after the fireworks, decided to look for him.

To my surprise, his bike was in a funny condition. The exhaust pipe was knocked by the bus till it bends about 60 degrees upwards. Couldnt help but keep laughing.*hahaha* Its so funny. Like he did modifications to the bike. Because i know that there are some bikers who like the exhaust to be higher than usual. Just that Aaron's one was too exaggerating.*LOL* He asked me over to Jas house to help out in his resume after that. I declined initially, but agreed only after i roamed around 1st.Feeling cooped up after the tutorial in the afternoon, so i wanted to have a stroll or something. Aaron went home with Jas while i continued to travel East.

Somehow didnt want to go any further and i stopped at East Coast Park. The sea breeze was cooling and strong, had a slow stroll on the beach which was rather crowed. People gathered in groups and sat by the beach, while some were casting their rods and fishing away. Took a deep deep breathe before i left. Only spent about half an hour over there before i made my way to Jas house. 1st person, or rather 1st animal that greeted me was her dog, yucks, licked my nose when i bend down to play with him.*haha* While i was typing the half-done resume for Aaron, the dog licked me a few more times. Felt tired and my mum called before hand to ask me not to roam the streets like the other spirits, so i didnt stay long too. Once i am done with the resume, i left for home. Along the way back went to sunshine place to ta pau(take away) supper. Bah Chor Mee for supper. When i was at the begining of the blog i was still eating, now at the end, i have finished both my Mee and my post.*haha*

Somethings to add, Wk and i saw our friend who drive his proton saga in Malaysia at 200km/hr.*LOL* Our dear Bikram lah,*hahaha* Chatted with him a while in the library where we met him on the stairs. Oh ya, i still have yet to post the fireworks videos. ZH, can wait right, my videos are worth waiting for, cause its real good.
Also will post some other pics as well when i have the time. Now its time to sleep. Nightz.

What a beautiful night

2006-08-12T01:21:00.000+08:00

So far, i tried to keep my post error free and in proper english whenever possible, but its just too time consuming to keep looking back for errors. This time round i will just type the way i always do. Hack the English, as long as its understandable, it should do the job.

Well, another day in school, 3 lectures today, 2 in the morning and one in the afternoon. Thought that i will be very late for lecture when i woke up at 7.30am. Lecture starts at 8.30am. Didnt make any effort to hurry and i just dragged myself out of house.Left house around 8.10am. Arrived at 8.45am, only 15 minutes late for lecture. Early in the morning at i got a scolding already, from an old granny who was mopping the floor. Some hokkien words babbled out of her mouth, and tried deciphering what the heck was she saying. Its someting like, 'didnt you see the sign? why cant you walk elsewhere?' But of course, i put it in a better manner. Her tone was ferocious. Sorry granny, didnt meant to, because i was late. Went into the lecture theatre and the 1st thing i got to do is to look for a kim(gold) hair guy. He is none other than Ricky. *haha* used his hair as a marker to find him and WK. Lecutre was okay, i didnt miss anything at all even though i was late. Then came the Chemistry lecture and after that was a 4 hours break.

Ricky went back home and skipped the afternoon lecture, while WK and i joined some friends (my sec sch schmates, Jingyang and Samuel) and his friend Lewis. KS's friend was there too, a planter. Forgot to ask his name. Maybe next time. Had an early lunch at Canteen A, some jap food stall very famous in NTU. There after went library and had a stroll, tired the printing systems. Before we disbanded and WK accompanied me to see a doctor.

Clinc is just inside the campus itsself, i must say super fast service, just that the doctor wasnt friendly at all. (Thinking that i want to cheat you for MC is it?) 2 dollars was i paid for to see a doctor and get the medicines. Consultation fee waivered by NTU i think, thats what my seniors told me, i only paid for the medicine.There after went to AHSS library to attempt tutorials, kept bugging Andy about how desperated i was to take his notes from him. The library is freaking cold, WK and i just do and do. Before we left to popular to buy his text book. At popular,ah meng was already there looking for chemistry text.... nothing much to say here lah.. all bulls.

Afternoon was maths lecture, WTF, i dont even understand what the lecturer was saying, and the way he speaks can really hypnothise us to sleep. What the, left the lecture with the same empty brain that i went in with. What a waste of time.Before i made my way to home, dropped by WK hostel to take the lab reports from him. Got to zap it outside. Lab starts next week.

Evening was drowsy and tired, i slept for a while before i realised that my mum was back home cooking. Saw a webbie about fireworks festival, i then noticed that its on today, hurried ask around my friends whoever wants to go,but to no avail. My feedback was either 'too late' or 'i have something on'. SO, i decided to go alone. Another time for crazy squeeze riding, getting more skilled at it i guess. Manage to find a great spot to be bedazzled with the lightings, got my camera up and ready. The first shot went off loud carried on with many behind. It was so beautiful that there came a point where i just 'WOW' to myself. The others around me started to 'Wow' too. *hahaha* Couldnt believe it, i thought to myself, did i just said 'wow'? 15 minutes of display was over quick. Oh ya, within this 15 mins, uncle sammies had copied down so many vehicle numbers for illegal parking or stopping on the road shoulder of an expressway. I think the tp department will have a huge income today.

After that left Marina and met Aaron to take my hp batt, and Alwin to chit chat. Aaron left as he is busy so Alwin and i went to Rochor beancurd stall. Talked a lot as usual, until there came a point of slience. Just a short pause in our conversation, i looked at the time and told him that its time to go home.And so i am back here again.

ZH, i see doctor liao ah, hahaha, your msg i told WK liao, he said he did talk to you on MSN. i still have yet to tell KS.

The fireworks video is about 400mb, youtube only allows 100mb, wait till i resize it, then i post it here.Nightz